tears still roll down...

only expected the truth and nothing else...some of the people simply do not realize how much important and how much necessary it is..even if you are doing your last final good bye..that atleast the person is going with a free heart, who can trust some one in future again..i laugh at myself about what i have done. How can i complain if this is and was my choice,and then how can i explain..


Just wanted to put all the theories to rest,
as have never ever passed in this test.
Some call it pain and other's insane,
hold my hand,to stop me from going in it again.

Hard to explain and to believe,
the reason is still you in these lines,but its the truth i seek.
Again and again its the same old lines,
some time its the rhyme, but most of time i am unable to define.

I cry,i love,i still put you infront of the faith i have in him,
was it destiny or a wish that you wanted me as a string,
so that it could be played at will,
as i still stand in the rain hoping to start or end it up that hill...

lonely...

do we always need or do we always act or do we always knew, and rest of the time i do....waiting and waiting for the best i mean and i feel the best to happen...just the way i want, simple and straight..we always never ever expect how we can and in what form we can have happiness from this world..

From people - have had many''beautiful failed experiments done on me''...but now i have started counting them as my stepping stones.....they come and go.destroy you completely..you just lick ur wounds,and stay there..now have mastered the art of anger management.

always me with me...

happiness can also be found being at peace...whether you are free at heart,know the no one will be there for you..then you share it alone..sing the tone you like,sitting at ease..amd yess no ome will understand why you are still happy in it...guess the next hand knows if you are lonely, the other hand will hold it...to fake it that you are not alone..why fake,or just i want to think that its the only way i can some how control my self with this bluff...


I want to believe in this bluff,
and yess for it i have had enough,
for the first time i am not having the strength,
to continue forward,but it has to end.

Today or tomorrow faith is all i have,
and all before it are sorrows,
its always the same every time,
happiness is all i want, but why is it always sublime.

being late

never wanted to be late for any sort of an occasion..but was late for the first interaction..and o boy i was or i am extremely sorry for what happenes..but can be clearly attributed to the mismanagement of time..may be and it is too much..i apologiese for that.....waise bhi i am very much frustrated that i screwed the morning.and rest as u say it followed..mood thoh khrab heee tha..so it just continued along...