Restless..

I want to talk to you, but can't

Don't know the reason for what actually I want.

Writing indefinitely is not what I am thinking or else proposing..

Perhaps its the only way out I find,  before disposing..

Frankly speaking in dilemma..to ask you or talk to you,

As everything was from my side, and you never said that "You also do"..

Worst part in it is thinking about what to do next.

I hope you say yes...that's the only request I behest ..

Uncontrolled and unplanned is the situation most of the time..

There is nothing left with me..besides the foolish lines to define.

Else the fate or destiny is sealed as it is.

Please for me you can try once...And I promise i will not leave you without a kiss..

Can say this as my last call or a plea...

Try to give me sign and be with me..

Seriously tired.., been down and restless , as I have never ever felt like this..

Writing this again..and again..and again..only for a wish "Be MINE my MISS".....

What Does "ONE" mean to you..

Have you ever wondered what the One Could mean,
I can imagine her..the way she looked at me..wearing her favorite green..
A bit short it was..
But who cares, I missed my sleep thinking about how to win the toss..

It was only done to win and be close to you,
Apologies..If I made you think "I am some one from the zoo"..
Your smile kept me busy all this while..Before I could say "I Do"..
Seriously ..Standing in front of you and speaking those words..felt like I need to immediately look out for loo.

"One"..and perhaps none would or could replace this word..
Much symbolic and sacred it his..from any thing in this world..
Off late the vision and the clarity are the two words...I might lack ,in what I want to speak..
I hope my words are able to tell you,... its not only you, but your heart I seek...

16 Till I deny..

I asked you to come out..Only to clarify your doubt..
No it was not me..but you.who was taking time to be in the mood..
Actually glad to have received your reply..late it was..and luckily it did not say "I will decide"..
To early perhaps it was for me..Do not go back reading this plea..

Does the age or the words decide..the time..
Before we are taken seriously for what we define..
No its not like we have to go through acid test to decide what best..
Trust me..You are the best for me..and its not like I am trying to say at your behest..

Late or being early..I have not reason to explain..
You are the one..let me repeat my thought..before I miss my train..
Being in love felt like I was a teen...
want to gift you a teddy..And it is't I am still sixteen...

Loving you is like the first thing I have with me..
You might laugh some time..thinking we have two kids who make you confront with destiny..
No no..its not like I am saying you have got old..
I hope the fiction becomes history..the only wish I have to be with you..before I am taken abode..

Get Life...

Get life my friend or find your wife.
Perhaps one of the most over rated word for a disguise..
No matter how many times you deny,
Only thing that you want to be associated is her sight..

I cannot control myself from explaining you,
Knowing the fact that you do not..
Even that does not stop me from thinking about you,
Its been a zillion times I have tried not to stick myself with flu..

Who cares...It only means I am with you like a glue..
I laugh...laugh ...at me..what actually I am doing by being a fool..
Don't worry..you can always expect these type of woes..
Not saying..that it can go away with a truce..

Can't get over myself from where I am stuck..
Simply too hard and tough for me...call it to be like moving a truck.
Shit is some thing I think ..off lately being called by some of you..
I accept everything..even though I have not got a kiss to continue..

Close my eyes to Hold you...

I close my eyes to pray for you,
For the reason to see the truth in you,
Hold you beneath me..yes it feels up so lonely..
The nights have some what missed the meaning..
That's what I am trying to say it to you from the very beginning..

I tried falling asleep, to see in you with my vision so weak..
And I could not ultimately find you, even though you had left a lining streak..
Not like any day to have the sealing fall on me.
Always trying my best to explain to you..its not me that who has wanted to be free..

I want to give it my time...to be my destiny and my fate..
Only thing that hold me..is a question...am I too late to debate ??
Have I lost you for the silly mistake I made ?
As per me ..I deserve one more chance to say and prove and to say...I am forever your from today to that day..

And  it can go on and on....A sorry..or a apology is not there in my song..
As I never regret what I have done..or is it that I am guilty of what I have done..
What ever be the reason or the moment you have in your mind..
Please do not turn back on me...till I am already blind...

Mixed Emotions...

When ever I try to correct some thing I have done.
I am reminded of the fact, was it intentional or is that I was merely having fun..
To be true its was none..
Simple was the way to express my happiness only for the "ONE"..

As they say..well begun is only half done,
Still stuck on the one...and now it seem has it really begun ??
Days seem like months..and much more..
Have I really loved you to be with me ??..Answer is a yes...much and very much before..

Why is it that I am still in dilemma ? and keep questioning myself..
Is is..I repent..or feel sorry to have started.....No its not any way likely that we have departed..
Only want to make you remind..You are "My precious"..forever and ever..
Just look into my eyes..you will see what the only word ..that means "TOGETHER"...

Symptoms of Love...For Me..and the "ONE"..

Symptoms…..For me being in LOVE..

Am I in love ??...

Or is it that I simply want to wash it with dove.

To make some story and a reason,

Let’s prove I am not guilty for hurting you. And now we are even.

That’s so evil of me to have a thought like this.

Allow me to rectify with one last kiss.

I promise I will never come back,

Only rename “NEVER” with forever and every word that makes me feel sad..

Okay I know it’s also tough for you,

Show me that you are also sick. And I am not asking for a proof…

Go on. And I will be glad to reply to your hesitations..

I hope it’s the enough time you had for the consideration.

Let’s not see it as a victory of anyone.

There is more to it…as other’s believed we have had none.

I do not want to make a fun of it (LOVE) in public.

Only want to clarify again, it’s much more sacred to me and you always make me click.

Imagine..my DREAMS for "SHE" and the "ONE"..

I can do what ever I want in my dreams,
That is perhaps the best part ..and its not like I am mean..
Self fish some time..can call it this way,
Not like as..always I am having my say..

Waiting..patiently for the day to arrive, for what I want,
Does not mean I am asking you for a grant..
But a simple thought to have your consideration,
Not to have some thing sort of a elimination.

Trust me its not simply like a radio station,
On which I can play my song without any hesitation..
Its like a 24x7 show time for me,
And it only plays my songs, I am sorry and you can pardon me for feeling lonely.

Perhaps that's the reason I want you to be near ,
Before I loose my persistence and disappear .
Just have a look back to see what I have become..
And I do not want to move out, before its said and done..

My Wish...for the "ONE and SHE"..

If I could have my say,
It would not be some day..but today..
Make every thing right.
Beginning from the start when we had a fight..

I could have freaked out at that time..
Was in a hurry to get closer to you, As I may define.
Truth some time is not what we may think could be..
Ask me if you have any hesitation to make you believe..

I may not be the one for you,
Call it destiny...but I can't let you go out through..
May be I am still stuck..
On one word that has associated me as a "SCHMUCK"..

No way I can let you go..
Its simply not easier for me..as it might look so..
Try to understand the situation I am trying to explain..
I am not ready to leave you again..

Difficult as I may sound,
Perhaps the most common word lately I am correctly able to pronounce..
Be with me..lie with me forever..
I an trying to delete the only word from dictionary..that sounds "NEVER"..

Trying to get Tired...of My track..

It starts off from the beginning again,
As I have hit the button to repeat it for the same..
Trying to understand the words behind the music,
Not as if its a new set up all together to do the trick..

Is it about the late mornings or the words I did not understand.
Or is it about the love story, and I am figuring it out to have something sort of a band..
To keep the melody on and on..diverting the attention from the theme..
Bored...devastated..ugly are the words....and yes I am tired ??.. mostly it might seem..

Like effortlessly going on..closing my eyes to forget you from the song..
Some how I cannot close my mind..It lies with me..to make me feel strong..
How could that be possible, as I am not with you..
Call it destiny..but to me its some thing much more than sounding funny..

I try to get tried of you..its really hard for me to strike a truce in between..
Love is like a flavor always in the mouth..and you hardly need any one to explain you are mean..
To me the track is kinda old..with lines having the meaning all disclosed..
My wish never to keep you away..as you are the "ONE"..let me just clarify what i want to say...