Conventional Boring scenario..

As I remember the time to feel and to perceive what I have become..
I am actually waiting for you to explain it to me..rather than saying its done..
Most of the situation and the notations were unexplained..
And still you are asking me..did it actually pained ?

Worse it becomes by asking it again and again..
Its there some where at the back of my mind..and boy..it reappears..
Call it to be the obnoxious weed..
And I do not want you any more..to have some thing sort of a repeat..

Change may be is the virtue of time..else its the easy to hide behind the lines..
Don't know how come you come again..to say how much I have gained..
All I say to you Its been a hell of a boring thing..going in me without you..
Are you asking me for the reason to change it..let me say...please come with me for a drive to my moon..

Scratch my head..

I wonder how quickly the things have changed.
Really makes me feel insecure..with a feeling so strange..
Guess what, I have actually given all what I have got..
And actually I am left alone like a thought to rot..

Do not worry my dear, its the time that is testing us with tears..
Some day they will be gone..and I will be left with my one last song..
Hope it makes you feel much better..
Can call it to be my one last feather..asking you to "lets again be together"..

Actually it up close and all within my hand's reach..
To easy to define..its not yet over as you may feel..
Also not trying to stretch it as a chewing gum..
Its natural for me to say an feel. you are definitely my love ..and my ONE..

Do I know ?

Do I know that I have loved you ever since I saw you..
Is it strange on my part to have not said it to you..What I wanted to ask?
As we pass it feels so late..
Perhaps its also true we have had not planned our first date..

Ignorance is always much more susceptible to make us come back..
Who knew it will help us to get together again..
Call it a missed shot..to me it was much more than just a mere pain..
Please say it again..the words you never spoke..or shall I have the permission to poke..

So strange it is to think about us..
To be true you also know it to work..
Why we are actually late in saying what we have in our hearts.
I promise..will never let you go...like the music is with the bass..

Its the "LOVE"..I want for you...."MY ONE"..

My teeth are always found stuck..in my lips..
And you complain..I never smile..so forget about the kiss..
Its obvious ..I was trying to be a fool..and make you one..
Ended up having nothing..except standing alone basking in the sun..

Seeing you made me think again..
Should I go back and say you the truth...Even if its the pain..
Actually its too hard for me to figure out..
I choke myself...every time I try to come out from the clouds.

Did it actually rain..to hide myself in it..
What difference does it make..I mean now..even if I move a bit.
I am Still standing there..waiting for your promise to come true..
Don't know why..But its love for my one..and that is what I am looking in you...

Belonging...

To be loved and left to live as it is..
Is the worst truth to happen to some one apart from a kiss..
Each day seems to be like heaven.
When you love some one..and forget your metro card on tavern.

That is just the few things to mention,
which ultimately comes with true love..and so is the tension..
Of not receiving a message or a call back..when you have said so..
Mind playing awe full games..saying it please do not let me go..

It is actually not a problem with me and I also do not think to much..
Simple to say..you actually do expect some to say ..I am there with you in each and every fuss.
Be it at my worst and I might tend to give away with rust..
Don't worry is the words you need..till end you may trust..

Who is my "ONE"..

I have said and explained enough about my one..
Its strange I still do not have the courage to speak and say its done..
Those alphabets that makes my head to round..
Words are few...to describe the way how it actually make the sound..

Been a while since we had a talk,
No one can define what we actually have had in that hour..
Its like every one was on a same platform waiting for you..
Importance ?..no..its actually an obsession to see you painted in with my blue..

Expectation were not off for a toss..
But its me still mourning about your loss..
Every day in the morning I say it to remind me..You live here with me..in me..
Who knows some day..I might get lucky..with you name permanently seeped in as I want to be..

Still the SAME..for my "ONE"..

Am I still the same..is the question I and we all usually ask ?
Movies..locations..celebrations are still in tact ..as we may pass..
So how come at the back of my mind it has a focus on you ?
Super human..no..its just me..asking you to come over to my moon..

It Isn't too soon...What else you want to think and configure..
If you wait more..I think my book of poems on you will be ready for the fair..
I do not write about what we have and could have had..
Just a perception..In my world..everything is set for you.,and need not move a tad..

Some people like me do not understand the world "MOVE ONE"..
Laugh at me..but the brain is not configured to accept its said and done..
I do not want to bug you at times of peace..reason is I am already having you..
Some time as a piece in my moments of happiness..that's all I ever asked you in times of need..

In here..

Am I a too old to write about it..
Or is it just a perception , I might lie a bit..
Its not about the age..but can call it to be an imperfection..
Is it actually too hard to understand..it not me..but only just a fraction..

Time and again..I have nothing to say but to explain..
Give me a break..just forget everything and let it out from your brain..
What you have been actually thinking of me..
Just tell me..how does it make you feel ?

I am not calling you to be green and asking you to beam..
Just asking you to reconsider..begging you is no way near in my jeans..
Love cannot be grown and frown like an expression..
Definitely it need some one like you to make me feel near perfection..

Actually can't stop laughing at me..why still I love you..
It kills me to say it again..its the word that has been repeated a zillion times probably since June..
Who am I trying to explain...You actually know you are in love ..so why this pain....
Accept the truth ...sing a duet ..and lets get together again..

Decision Maker..and Decision Making..

Its so hard to understand when you are judge by some one,
Being silent does not mean that you accept everything in his name..
Have been called insane and have myself to be blamed..
What if all that was said about me..was actually lame..

I never asked you to stop..for me..
Apologies for that..but that was not I actually meant to be..
Wish you could feel what's inside me..
Could not deny..what was actually meant for my "SHE"..

Confusion's and frustration level's are back..
Asking me to come out and shout ..saying I am not at all bad.
Its simply very hard for me to understand...and I only meant to be with you..
Not selfish...but I still love you..and that is actually the truth..

Perceptions...or a Mirror Image of Difference..

Some one said to me when I was young..
You will get what you want..But remember it will never be as done..
The hunger to have more and more grows within..
Guess what...I thought happiness could be bought from the store and so is the win..

What I am saying is a bit confusing and different..
Having my lunch alone..yes that makes me consistent..
Perhaps some thing is in my hands..
What actually I am trying to have...is one hell of a hard thing to understand..

Stupid questions and an obnoxious mind..
Crap is actually what I am writing..just can't take you out from my lines..
I know.. it actually does not mean anything related to you..
Not able to understand..what stops me for correlating to you as my moon..