"I" to "WE" & to "US"...

Its a bit difficult to accept, if you get the one you never wanted to forget,
Moving in consideration as "WE"..yes its not just an alphabet added to destiny.
Decisions now are much more precise, and not delayed only the point I want to emphasize,
Does all of this makes me happy ?? to be true I only want you to have your trophy.

My way to understand it is a bit different,
I might sound deflated as I always tend to listen,
Perhaps that's the best what I have learned from communication,
Two way its better, than only giving a mere dictation.

No way I could have understood the meaning behind those days,
Yes, spent lonely, clueless..I hope those learning pays.
Hard to control yourself back, when you know" you cannot ignore the fact".
Those three words, deep inside and sealed as a pact.

Not like the more I speak or write is the way to over exaggerate,
And reminding myself that its never to late to accept "The one" as your fate.
Changed notation and difficult lines, I know Its hard to understand even the spaces in my lines,
Its the best that I have seen for us..Pull over and lets start associating me with you with all the trust..

I saw you..In me..

Every morning I wake up to wipe off my face,
I see you in the mirror, and its not my head is displaced.
I wonder if my eyes have embedded the picture of you,
And its reflected in every thing and any thing I do...

I do not want to clean my face and my eyes,
Yes I am afraid, it might affect the picture which is inside.,
Or can it be so easy to forget the one,
Who cannot be compared and she best for anyone..

I know you do not have dimples on your face,
But that was not the only reason for loving you in all these days..
May be its the heart and you have given me a reason to wake up from my past,
Standing on my legs I am waiting for your reply, Please answer it early before they also start to cry..

It makes me happy just by having a glimpse of you,
And its true ,I have never ever seen you up so close to pursue..
Only to ask, "Will you be mine forever , even in those dark hours" ??
I am aware its hard to answer that considering the words of war..

Trust me I was,I am and always be happy for you,
Look out from the window, I am standing there and its not a virtue,
You only have to close your eyes and wave your hand for sign,
I do not know what I will do, Trust me you can wish goodbye to all your blues....

Confused like a Baby ??..To be true..Yes and No..

Its the moment of hope that has helped the clock the tick,

Every time out of breath I try to lie down and give up,

Only to see your face, gather my self and come out to say.."Its not that I am stuck"..

Like some "ingredient" I am missing to make up my day to "GOOD DAY"..

Only to keep myself in the dilemma, that "Good day" will come soon..if not today..

Twisted words and confused themes, are some of the spices that are leaving me "saying as mean",

Not the food I am taking about, but they are all necessary to prevent you from loosing the sheen,

Words are at galore, without the grid locks,

I simply do not have any idea where my ship docks.

With each day bringing up a different mood and a set of constraints,

I could easily see you up there from my window pane.

Do not have the guts to vouch for my lady love,

Unable to figure it out "whats stopping me??", and its not like I do not have the guts..

Hands tied and emotions scratched, the marks are still fresh after the so called rough patch,

No they are not the ones I am bothered for,

Could not let you slip out of my destiny, and should know the lines stretches too far.

Angry, dried down, battered or bruised...all the words combined will not be able to make a truce,

It can go on ,and on ,and on...should know its simply impossible to let you go out from my song....

Break away........

The pressure inside is simply unbearable,
I admit the so called peace of mind is simply not there,
Many distractions hampering the stability, which is the need of the hour,
There is nothing going on that makes the something to go some where.

The lines are not clear and so is the rhyme,
With the last word ending as is the whole poem is sublime.
Do not blame me, as I never wanted to write,
But how could I stop myself from tell you "That its also not bringing respite"..

To the situation in which I am  presently stuck,
Not able to define the situation, but hoping for the luck,
Yes time and again it has always deceived me,
And this time I think I have lost the one to destiny.

Why is the so called fate comes in between,
Even though we have always wished for the happiness to end the stream,
I might not be able to describe what I actually want to say,
Spend some time with me, it will help me to keep my ideas at bay..

I do not want to sound selfish in my lines,
Its the only way I see to end the pressure inside,
Might not be the safest or "THE best bet" for the decision made,
Trust me, I will not vanish like a haze..

Is turning Invisible way to solve your problems ??

They come in a bunch of gift rapped with coupons of happiness. Seems to be like a magic wand to end up your queries or so called assumed set of problems..Later you end up being an invisible person finding a way to come out from the weight of expectations. The heavier the load of expectations more difficult it becomes to swim with a bag pack on your back. So called obvious reasons or the theories do not matter , as there is no fixed set of solutions to them. Probably the "time" is so called the best healer as they say..Or we tend to count up on time, as we have given hope. The other version could easily be this one..Any way what so ever is the condition, you cannot deny the truth..And only option or the condition you have is to digest the end result. As being happy or sad is no longer in your own hands or is in your virtue.

Time and again you crib for the things you have never ever had.Is it the correct way of depicting yourself ?
I doubt that..but the so called understanding of the situation or the way you speak or interact can easily lead to the people around you forming an opinion. And do you care what the result they are able to make out from it..Definitely yes...As they are your true companions who ave trusted you and dependent on you for your feedback..Same is the case with you..The so called thing of being "distracted" or carrying a name tag of a "Loner" also does not help..The greatest of the men did not die out fighting, but won the fight and come back to tell the story.That is actually the beauty of the situation."No matter what"..you give every thing in for it with a heart out.

I might sound low, and you feel I fell from the window,
Please take a look back, I am actually holding it with my bow,
Do you think I drowned some way in between,
It was the oxygen some how that help me come out of it clean.

Does any of the above actions sound I may have given up hope,
I am actually trying to make up to you by climbing up using a rope.
Was it like a dirt that could be easily wiped off with a soap,
Don't doubt the actions , only a low profile I think will help me and not a stove.

Some time the things are tough to understand and we are never able feel its nerve,
I do not want to sound like as if I am actually perturbed..
Only holding back with time and the correct mindset to make a come back,
Trust me the time is not gona stay like this, And I will come back to claim by Bag pack...

The best of everything and every reason with a SORRY..

To the "ONE" ..My "SHE"...

The most easy way of escaping a situation is to say sorry. And move on...Take any situation and a SORRY comes to your rescue..Its perhaps the most widely used words of all time by any one. If you touch some one's vehicle while driving..Say a sorry and breeze past him..If you forget to complete a work..say a sorry and move on with a next time line or a target date. If you want to take your anger out..Blast the person and apologies will do it for you. Perhaps one of the most "ABUSED" word it has actually become. For every reason for every season we are there up with a sorry figure. From seeking a attention to writing a mail..its present every where in every corner. Can any other word replace this word any time..I think no sooner. Perhaps a "Smiley"  comes to the rescue , but in a sarcastic manner.Its like abusing some one with a much more decorum and respect. The one in the receiving end will probably take a minute to notice and actually come back to you for what happened.

And in case of the relations ..we are a sorry figure for the society..Being easily badged  with being a loner and a psychopath..A big pass on for every one..as from the "depressed" lot. People tend to skip being in the presence of them with a mindset of being crazy and unrealistic..We actually do not blame the one's for their perception.and acknowledge the fact that some attention is being paid to the person who is in the dilemma. The one living in regret are actually the one to look for. You can easily guess the politeness and the respect they associate with every one. Being a stand out in the crowd for the perfection in their work and the performance in any aspect. One of the most difficult times is that when the sorry becomes an excuse to move ahead in life of to exploit some one of the innocence attached to the trust. It makes you feel like having a liberty to move ahead and play with some one's feeling if your "SORRY" is accepted. Does that mean giving some one a second chance a big no no in any situation. It depends on your perception and the heart you have. No one can influence the decision with their friendly advice or a forcibly intent.  The best is to use your heart and more importantly your brain for the decision. Vulnerability to the situation can be the reason of so called "Loose decision"..

Sorry to the "ONE or She"..

I am sorry to the one who has trusted me with the eyes closed,
It was never intended to hurt you, and was only a case which I opposed,
Most of the times I can feel my hands shiver of the words spoken,
Answer to most of the them were never anticipated with a heart broken..

A sorry state of mind does not mean to reconsider your decision,
And its the life at stake, so do not reply to me without any reason,
Might be and will be difficult to move ahead,
Trust me, I promise you will never go out without having any shed.

Time an again its the apology I am seeking for,
Please Come back, its the only hope that I am looking for.
Twisting words or the rhyme in the poem will not be able to define,
The love I have for you is definite like a "beauty divine"..

The Week ends...are really WEAK ends...

What a bore... I mean what a bore..2 simultaneous weekends gone without an outing. Really, its me missing you badly..The moment I see my cell without any updates of yours make me feel sick. So much used to asking questions , its like a day spent without any progressions..What do I do then??...Ask them to me..Ya its silly..but what to do to keep myself busy..Can call it to be butterflies running down the stomach..Okay..I admit..Seriously speaking I did not saw it coming ..Ie the end result of all this..No good movies released in the week end, no friends available for the outing..Left with the worst option of "FACEBOOK"..Dude get a life..Its like you have to take a "PLEDGE" to quit it..Some time the addition goes to much and reaches a level that we start updating out "TIME Table" on it..The encouragement part comes in when we receive a comment or "LIKE" button is pasted on it..That simply multiplies the satisfaction level..And the "NIRVANA" has been attained..

The movie actually depicts the theme behind all this social networking stuff, and Its all about the little show off.  I admit "I am also not different " from any one else being associated with it..It ultimately depends on the individual, you simply cannot compare or force your opinion on some one. Seriously there is actually better work in this world to do so, than judging and having a discriminatory behavior towards some one. Be busy living..We always have the easy way of saying the truth, in our own version..The so called "Justification of our OWN truth"..Our way..glorifying the actions and decisions..Might be the easy way to move on perhaps...Any way coming back to the topic. The fun days are nothing better without your family or friends. With most of the times your mom crying to help her clean the home..and after 10 minutes of fight or so..She ultimately settles for the wish "At least clean your room"..Adjust your wardrobe..The dad off course are much more chilled out..Busy with themselves..and the saying "One day or other you gona understand why we speak so"..Not that he has given up on you..but more importantly he wants the time to teach you all this..Your grandparents want you to read "GURBANI" and go to gurudwara every day..One more strange wish they have is that, they actually want you to be present there with them..Any "REASON" to refrain them or to explain them actually goes in vain..Then comes your siblings ..Movie Le ja ?...Kahin le ja ??
Gumane hee le ja ??  ...Shopping karva de ??............................................................................................
Your only wish some time is to hang the weekends..But with time it makes you realize your own worlds is not your own..Its actually a percentage collection of the near and dear, besides you. They also have some expectations and you have some responsibilities.Being closer to them makes you realize some time down the track , you have to sing and listen to the song your companion..Even though its not the language or the wording you every wanted to listen to.

So the week ends now leave me with much thinking of "what to do" ??..
I cannot go on singing a song like Winnie the pooh,
Or to listen to a song that always remind me to say "I DO"..
Common..I need a better reason to continue..

Seriously these week ends have become a lot difficult,
No I do not mean I cannot pronounce "YOGURT".
But they kinda taste like "YUK"..most of the time,
Its true Ankur and Uday are not in town to actually help me design..

To design the location and the plan to hang out,
I am done with every thing , besides asking you about,
Common you have only the sunday to spend with me,
The "chemical reaction" can take a "time out" from your destiny..

An option..A Choice and THE DECISION....

We all live our lives with our own will and are all proud on the decisions made in the past..But some time down the line we forget that it was actually "An option" or "A choice" we were never sure, but still went ahead with it. Only to realize that the option or a choice was actually a good decision. The assumptions or presumptions change in due course of time. And a pat on the back is well deserved for "RISK" taking ability. Which ultimately paid off, as we never had to regret the "choice" we made. In short it depends on the "GUT" feeling you have to venture out to the unknown..More importantly the faith , that you can pull this off..no matter what is the situation.Call it over confidence..But to me its "Faith".

The brain is always in dilemma for some thing or the other. Some time it reflects on you face, and some time not. Expressing your concern its better, and if you do..Then please also be open for the opinion you are gona  receive regarding it. Accept them with a big heart, but you have all the liberty to make your own decision. Accepting is better than regretting. The options, choice and the decision are and is always with us. From the day we are born, we choose our own way and our own path.

Nascent form of Choice.(As a new born)
We decide our Sleep and wake time.
We decide when to eat.
We decide when to cry and when to laugh.
We decide when to walk, when to crawl.
We decide when to start speaking and when not.
We decide when to go for a walk.
We decide to say those golden words (Mama and papa)

The decision making ability power changes as out heart overtakes our brain for the illusion happening in this world. The Sleep and wake is replaced by the cycle we want to have. If its being endorsed by a child artist or a TV personality or my neighborhood guy has this..then its a big yes..The advertisers have also realized this fact of "CHILD POWER"..As the complexity of the world has increased the reduction in the parents time has been compensated by the number of wishes answered of your child. For the basic acceptance to keep him/her happy.The seed that you have sown in this mind will soon be a tree some time later.

"People are to be loved and things are to be used , and not vice verse"

It happens unknowingly to every one of us. And after some years we realize to have traded our time for the "GIFTS"..The less the time..more expensive they are gona become. One of the best reason behind all those "Gurgaon's" and "Vasnt Kunj's" and those "Late night"..is of this only. This small start is a talking point in the later stage of the life of the person.  Being stubborn, using "N" number of ways to make your wish and requirements come true, are actually the after effects. Can you complain for the actions that you have made..The answer is simple no..Try to engage yourself to find your inner self..Call it introspect of self belief, like it or not..Trust me, it will definitely help you to part off with the worries , that you have or you have ever faced. Just a 5 minute complete analysis of the whole day will be able to bring in the results.

I wonder how the things change with time,
One moment it was me and now its you , that I am holding in between my lines.
Looked as if the whole story just passed before me in a flash.
Yes, its true I never anticipated..Why was I never in a position to en cash.

From the day we are born, its the happiness we bring in to our family,
Where it is now ??..And no, I am not asking this to make a mockery.
Priorities change with time, only a wish "please see their (Parents) eyes who are not filled with lime,"
The wish to see you still throngs in their heart, as if a new one has just begun from the word start.

Every thing and yet nothing changes in this world,
Its up to the individual to see, that the language in any case is no absurd,
They have actually given their heart out to make you dreams come true,
Lets come together mutually, and say to them you are the one,
The reason , the force and its definitely better than every one...

Stalking or "TRUE LOVE"...and a THIN line in between (From Beholder's point of view)...

One of the topic of debate that the blogger and the reader,  or any one close to me about my blog including me is..
My obsession or schedule of writing some thing, and can it be remotely taken into consideration as "STALKING" or a case of "MENTAL harassment". Seemingly unknown, but I do not blame any one who has been a reader to any of the post at any point of time. Yes its true it relates to the fictional aspect, inspired by the true incidents from my so called life till date. And at this point of time, to club it or take it as an addiction is completely wrong. More appropriately, it can be called to be a "PASSION of LOVE"..for my "SHE or THE ONE" to be more realistic. Its not a "DAILY POST" or a "DIARY ENTRY" to remind the "ONE" that I miss her..or to any of my friends or colleagues that I am still deep in it. Really its much more "SACRED" to me than all of this, as I have always loved the one from my heart. Irrespective of the fact or result of the other side, and I have no qualm to admit "I DO"..Some time it ie my blog or post can be or is a laughing point of discussion of so called "LOVE" related posts. I am not saying its a too famous of a link or a post to read..but its to those who read it.Ever wondered the reason behind starting the blog and venting your heart out only to breathe properly. Only concern was
 "Can the people around this world be able to understand an correlate what I want to say ??..And simply do not consider the "Blogger" to be a freak from some another planet obsessed with "MOVIES" and trying to replicate for a SHOW OFF..

I or we (Blog and me) do not consider any one in particular to make an opinion about us only by mere reading of the blog. As deep inside its much more than what my blog seems to depict ,say or explain. Off course you cannot judge the book by its cover.So spend some time with me and with it. Try to understand the reason behind..and I will help you to draft a opinion about me and my blog. Apart from the fact its "monotonous"..its much more and beyond the mind can foresee.Each and every line carries a true picture of my heart.Who has always loved the "ONE" more than anything else...not as a stalker but as a passion..and not an obsession..Need not be afraid of my actions or what I say. Have all the "CONTROL MECHANISM " in place for the fail safe mode.

This post does not contain any meaning or a relevant information. Its only written to "RESPECT" the decision made from the other end, irrespective of the explanation. Stalking and obsession cannot be mixed in for "PASSION"..And its sacred for me..ie to be with my loved one. Even though its one sided..I am comfortable with it..Not like I am not having the courage to accept the truth and move one..Still clueless about it..and trying for it to seep in. Most of the time, I am explaining it to god to keep her in me..Deep within.

My passion is some time taken into consideration as my obsession of being a stalker,
Time and again , I need not explain "I am in love with you"...Irrespective of the fact I am shorter..
Need not be the best man to be with you,
But the best to keep you away from all those blue..

Why I am still writing about you,
Not to remind you or to tell you or to force you to reconsider your decision.
Only to clarify "MY LOVE" is independent of any of the above condition.
Happy in my present state of mind in my own small world,
Call it insane, Only request " please do not complain",
And let me be happy with my "Assumptions" and not the pain.

Do I repeat the topic and elongate as chewing gum,
Not actually true, but its the way to vent out my GUM.  (     गम     ).
Can I be solid or assume my self to be a rock to disguise,
I admit, I have nothing else to say and only wish to be on your side.. 

Reaction to Counter "ACTION"....and the TRAIN is leaving...

One of the most common mistakes as individuals we commit is to explain or to justify our action for the reaction. You should actually know that we appreciate what you did..As apart from you, we our anyone else is not or was not in a position to decide "What actually you should do ?".We are actually proud of you to have handled the things completely on your own, and straight from your heart. As down the line in later years you should not say like.

अगर     यूँ     होता    तोह    क्या    होता ..
अगर    यूँ    न    होता    तोह    क्या    होता।

The story narrated by one of the best speaker I have ever met was by Mr Asit Gosh. The more you discuss, more complex things become with number of opinions increasing. If you go by it, you end up satisfying others and not yourself. And time and again you will regret the decision or actions made. As none of them reflected your true spirit. Its like only "ONE" chance you have, and make it count in every aspect..Its like jaise "koi train ja rahe hain"..and it will not come back. Simply say what you need to say. Irrespective of the fact or the result will be..Its like "one last wish you have and the world is going to end, if you will not speak your heart out".Not at all filmy type..but its the truth. Imagine how the world would have been if a "YES" came from that lips..Perhaps and definitely heaven on this earth.Behind all those Good mornings and Good nights..its a heart saying to the other heart.."LOVE ME" more than any things else in this world.In mathematical term, an exponential increase with each day progressing..

Oh boy..and then ask me for how is your life ??
I will say.who cares..ask her ?? Do I actually get enough of her to see what else is going around..What is the price of the diesel or the inflation.Dude remember "Its now or never".I will try and be more happy to fail, rather than being called a "QUITTER".As they say ."Meri sui add gaye hain"..Same is mentioned in punjabi.

ਏਹਦੀ  ਤਾਂ   ਸੁਈ   ਅੱਡ   ਗਯੀ   ਹੈ 

"Some people do not know how close they were to success, when they actually quit".
I think and hope same is applicable to the "LOVE" also. As the above theorem stands true for all the inventions..And the "LOVE" is also an invention in our lives.I think !!..and I am not wrong.Yes its true the behavior some time comes as a shocking to me and to every one else. But the reactions are true and pure and not programmed..

To keep you on your toes.
To keep you guessing what next is coming.
To keep you happy for ever and ever..
To keep holding your hand...as if its permanently welded or soldered..
To keep you with me for "n" years to come..
To keep you like you always..
To keep loving you.
To keep bugging you.
To keep praying for you..
To make you feel each day as new.
To make you feel that one special person ..who is the world for me.
To love you without a reason.
To love you in every season.
To love you with every sun rise.
To love you every second, every minute..for the rest of my life.
That's how I love you..