Some time you do believe the truth.....

Its tough to believe the reality you face.
With the mind having the hesitation to realize its Not a disgrace.
Perhaps its hard to say its been days..
Still fresh in my mind with the maze..

No good for any one..
Is the fact I have to digest..and it too easy to say than done..
Some thing must be faulty in my circuit..
And I am always trying to fix it..

The words have dried up as I speak..
Tried to shout at the top of my voice from that peak..
I hope at some point of time you listen to them. and believe..
Every thing is and was for you..and only Waiting for your reply to make it "Complete"..

My Mind

I am having those words in my head.
Perhaps the truth I always wanted to know..was out ..before we reach that bend..
Seriously I do not wanted this to be like THIS..
The book mark on my laptop do not seem to disappear..and I know I am nearing the end of this year..

Your name..your college..the last words some how on every day makes me realize what I have done.
I am sorry and apologies for the promise made..and simply it was not for fun..
Knowing and believing the truth is had to come by after what have happened.
Do not regret the fact..but only ashamed of myself...and I hope its not the end..

The feeling is like a mixed bag of emotions..I want to cry..only thing holding my self is your wish..
Not blaming myself..even though nothing has worked for us..and can accept the decision as his..
Hard to let the one go besides you, cant even say HI..as it will trouble her more..
But please tell me the way to be with you..and I see my self with any one else in this world..

A Promise made to the "One"..

No one knew how may times I cried.
Perhaps till date I have not at any single time lied..
For a wish to be with you,
As some thing is lost if I am not able to see you...still I say I do..

Word have a meaning with your name,
Before or After , does not mean they are in vain.
Never was it simple to be together..
I know , I am no good for you..to be there forever..

Trying to raise my level up,
To reach you, and say.."Lets forget the past" and start a fresh.
Promise you this time it will not end up in a mess..
Please give me a chance again, to prove myself again.
.and May god bless and take away all my pain..

Helpless is the word that has been recently attached.
Seeing you from the window, all I am hoping lets get together and get it patched..
I am waiting for the moment till you make up your mind.
As said earlier.."Its tough for me to see you in and from my behind"..

With my Heart out for the ONE

No way to describe or to explain.
I am feeling shy to say its simply insane..
To keep me waiting for the moment..
And I am trying to tell you again I am not your opponent.

Give me a chance to explain,
I do not need a training to be in this game..
Is there a reason that stops me from loving you,
None is I can find, only thing I see you every where in my truth..

The is no better way to be there..
Up in the sky and I watch you from up here..
It is not at all fair to keep me waiting..
As it is and it was always always you in the painting..

Really Bored..

Seriously bored and tried..
I think..its about time and I should have retired..
For the silly things I always do..
Really none of them have any meaning..except..I am writing to be with you..

The meaning..or the reason I do not have,
Nor it is the thing..I seek in your lab..
Of course its done for you..
Definition is hard to find all through..

Perhaps its a big long wait for which I am afraid..
No...its not like I have made them go fade..
The color perhaps have gone dull..
Or Is it I am happy to switch them off with a kill..

Simply freaking out at times to be with you,
I can't concentrate on anything....without having your view..
The question that comes in my mind..is have I accepted the truth ?
No..is my answer..and I am happy to live with a lie..till I wake up to see me in front of you. 

Dependence...on "ONE"..

The dependence of my happiness is the fact I have accepted..
May be some day I and you will understand it was much more than just mere being reflected..
No..its nothing as you feel I am stalking..
Yes indeed..I admit standing there knocking..

To easy to say and believe..
It takes a heart out to say..Am I relieved ?
The answer to which I do not have..
Could be telling a lie for you...I think I am not bad..

Morning have a smile of you..
As the day progress I feel your sight inside as truth..
Learned to live along and carry on...
Its the voice inside my head..that loves you ..Even though you are gone.

Disturbing...Stalking..seeking your attention..in some context could not be ruled out..
I wish you could see from my world...how it is ? ..without..
Every word have only one meaning of seeking an apology, begging you to come back..
Never could have imagine I will be like this..Seriously being with you is the only wish I ever had..

Repeat..

Its sound silly of me for linking you to my each and every feat..
Incredibly cheap..and yes it sound a bit something sort of a repeat..
No ..I am not a geek..
but only trying to say its the destiny I want to beat..

Not like I have given up on you,
Been a while since I have see you with the moon..
Not at at all easy to say and explain..
Seriously I am not trying to refrain my self from the pain.

Some times I breathe High..and yes..I also loose my sight..
Bow my head down..to stand again..May be..I do not want to loose this fight..
Some day I will come back to say it to you..
That day will be for MY ONE..and I offer what I have unconditionally..and its "Only the truth"..

Seeing myself...and "MY SHE"..

Is this what I imagined I will be ??
Years down the line....have only added to the pressure on me..
Various reason and n number of explanations I have..
Seriously thinking about all of this makes me feel sad..

Perhaps there was something in what I said to my dad..
Have I lived up to the promise..or is that I have moved just a tad..
What ever the reason may be..I have not lived up to the promised made to she..
I am sorry..that was the best I could do...in my last plea..

The best moment I hope is yet to come.
Why I am actually waiting looking towards the sun..
Not making a fun by calling it my bun...
And its true..its "love" that I have never felt..and I feel like a nun..

Have nothing much left to say and to explain..
Its the only thing..in which I have let you down..with no gains.
Equally frustrating it is for me..
As forever I have loved you more than me..

And Again..for the "ONE"..

Here I come again..with my plea...
Don't look back..but consider it for me..
Or should I bend my knees and drop down..
Its not silly..but I am only picking up my pen as I pronounce..

Oh ..you thought the other way around !!
Don't worry I will do the same..only waiting for the words to be found..
Late or early I do not know..
Should be from the heart..And I only wanted it to go slow..

Nothing like Anything particular for a reason,
But Its precious to me ..that too in every season..
I am not having the habit to change myself for loving you..
But you can expect me..coming back to you..as My love is true..

Restless..

I want to talk to you, but can't

Don't know the reason for what actually I want.

Writing indefinitely is not what I am thinking or else proposing..

Perhaps its the only way out I find,  before disposing..

Frankly speaking in dilemma..to ask you or talk to you,

As everything was from my side, and you never said that "You also do"..

Worst part in it is thinking about what to do next.

I hope you say yes...that's the only request I behest ..

Uncontrolled and unplanned is the situation most of the time..

There is nothing left with me..besides the foolish lines to define.

Else the fate or destiny is sealed as it is.

Please for me you can try once...And I promise i will not leave you without a kiss..

Can say this as my last call or a plea...

Try to give me sign and be with me..

Seriously tired.., been down and restless , as I have never ever felt like this..

Writing this again..and again..and again..only for a wish "Be MINE my MISS".....