I am sorry :(

Started with a "HOPE" for my one :)

Will I be able to forget the need ...of having some one..
Guess what..am I expecting too much..and is it life making my fun ?
For the unasked questions and so called obvious answers..
Never really like them.... and just running behind my past..that's it..

Obvious reason is to stay..a float..
Never really know..am I the sea or..simply travelling in some body's else boat...
Most of the time ..I believe I am made a scrape goat...
Its true..as it some time...the silly thoughts inside..made me look worse..

I tried to get the feeling out of me...but failed miserably..
As all the stories relate to you...even in red..I wonder why I still like blue..
It was all much very obvious to predict my end..
May be its the past that has haunted me..at the corner of that bend..

What ever..I try to write and explain...
And I know nothing will come out without saying you or me as insane..
The best may be..I should live like this feeling you up as my force..
Its a thin ray of hope..that reminds me..the doors up there are still not closed..

Its like...

Its like..I have never laughed so much..
For whatever numerous reasons as it may sound like a buzz..
And I look at myself..standing up there..
Stuck on the "ONE"...looking up in despair..

No its not the correct rhyme..
And may be its also not about the time..
Forget about the days ahead....
Felt like...as if there has not been a bigger threat..

Repeat it may seem..to me..
Questions are all but the same..but the actual blame is on the destiny..
Patience and the persistence going out for toss..
Feels like...its all the but more..like a floss..

With no time to look back and analyse..
Am , I the stupid one..waiting to see those eyes..
The answer is ..to sublime...
That is why I am Quietly waiting for my own time...

Who am I ?

Who am I is the question I ask my self..
Most obvious answer with a reply is.....whats actually in a dress..
I thought..people prefer to read the abstract ...
Rather than merely looking whats underneath the sack..

Believe me its the skin which every one is looking for..
As the heart is so impure..and it cannot be trusted in this hour..
May be you are correct ..but let me clarify your vision..
Don't weigh me up there...As I never belonged to that prison..

Sick is the word I feel..
Seeing every one around..living in the so called empty world..so much similar to the reel..
I am not the one who is interested to keep them awake..
It was only a wish..not to think me as an ordinary cup plate..

So who am I ?...is the question going around in my mind..
Is actually a simple guy..who wishes to say "I love you"....not from behind..
As its one of the most sacred feeling any one could have..
Never wanted to disappear ..simply just like that...

Thank you for Everything :)

Some one..Some where :)

Smile is the only word..I can relate it to..
As it only meant..I am close to you..
No time goes by..when I never miss you..
Some time..I wish,  I could tell you..it was the truth..

Never got a chance to say those words..
As I kept them up so close..
To find a reason ...in order to express..
Hard to believe what happened....Yes..I am some time depressed..

Thinking of the good old times..shared with you..
Ever increasing excitement..simply expressing my inner virtue..
I guess..you do not have to charge your battery again..
But I miss the message more than your cellphone to blame..

If I could do what I want to...
We could not have ended..seeing our self through the moon..
Its the numerous WHY I ask myself..
May be...some one up there is watching...to correct me from depth...

In here.... :)

One of the most funniest shape of a SMILEY ...
I got to know...off lately..
Can't stop laughing ...that how come a dot with a bracket could relate to me...
Trust me..it was simply magical...seeing my one inching closer to my destiny..

My smile suddenly had a new meaning..
Mad at times..but it actually meant being in..
Tough to explain..to the people around..
But they could make out..I am now actually out of bounds..

Mornings were a bit different..
I thought..it was the excitement that made it much more than being consistent..
All the time it was with me...with the ear placed next to it..
Wishing for a sound..and you never know..when it will sing..

The feelings and the emotions cannot be explained behind the lines...
As it was more than..just a use of words to explain my so called inerts..
Is it ..me who is always to blame......that nothing worked out with me..
I hope and trust..some one up there is watching....and making best of the opportunity...

Lies in the EYES....

If you could ever understand what I felt about you...
Actually you would have been with me...rather than me writing a so called plea..
Kinda hard to accept the fact...
How can I let you go..just like that..

Perhaps I have nothing more to say and to offer you..
Besides the wishes and hope....Simply just like that..
I some how..can never forget the seconds spend with you..
Calling you in the morning..hearing the voice as a fresh new moon..

How could it end so soon ?? is the question I ask..
May be some one better is waiting for you..As I have now become your past..
Cursing my self ..and has all the toward me to blame..
Yes..people do call me simple..similar to a plane jane..

It pains inside to let some one go from you..
If I could ask....you to stay...and let me have one last view..
But you never know..when they actually come in to let some one go...
Blame it on destiny....else I have nothing more to say....and quietly walking out from that door.

Thank you my "ONE"...for everything..

Once again..it has come back to haunt me...
I guess..you love me much more than my "SHE"..
Believe me..I was so much deep into it..
Felt as if heaven ...some how fell into shit..

Of all the goodies to the pacts made..
Riding a bike....was indeed a wish ...only a juvenile would make..
The classic some what have had a better opinion to break..
Monotonous  agony of getting failed....every time blaming the fate..

Yes the anger is much deep within..
Could not say out...as it was not just a mere trophy to win..
Some what it was my only hope..
Love of you..was always like..I have had taken a dope..

To say again...felt like I was begging you for my smile..
Truth is..I no longer has the strength to live with the lies..
No longer..those days will come..
Trust me..I only cry..as I mean and felt..you are my only "ONE"..

To believe in some "ONE"...

Could easily be one of the leaf out from my life..
I am looking at my cell..as I type..
To believe that a reply to my message is pending..
God forbid..but some how I think..its all up so close to a near ending...

Seriously..to care for some is all I ever wanted..
Was her smile..that could comfort me....else I was always haunted..
By the pain and the believe some one some day will come..
For whom..I am writing till today...as its not for fun..

Suddenly the situation has changed..to almost disbelief..
Never could have expected this....and definitely it took a memory from my peak..
Busy in my so called world with the worst fear to expect..
Which have actually come to drop me dead..

Time and again..the so called my love for my one has eluded me..
Will I always be the same..curing my destiny..
Or can it give me a reason to smile ....come back and say..
Its enough of the play..marry this girl...as she the one..for whom you have always prayed..