Our own LOVE BIRD's - UDAY and G********I.....

UDAY and G********I

The second name is being with held for the confidential reasons.. No no ...its not like they do not love each other..Actually Uday always is finding for one reason or another to talk to her.Take saturday's case, he was actually seeking advice for ankur and "TRYING " to make the conversation with her interesting.. Sach mein..Boys are like..They go to any extent to WOO the love of their life..What it meant for us.I mean to ankur and me..We lost a good one to a great person..Yes we are happy for both. Its a great feeling to be loved by the one, who loves you back..actually more than you love him or her.

We kinda remember the old days talking about "LADKI" nahi hai yaar..aur jab hai..then "LADKI" hai yaar Samjha kar..The language suddenly changes, the mood swings , those GOOD NIGHT wishes and kisses..The promises made..those late night talks..Waiting for her to see her atleast once before she boards the cab..and boring the next person in the cab to hell..not allowing him or her to sleep..Then waking up in the morning with a message of "GOOD morning"..That eagerness to reach your office just to see one look of her, and o boy that makes up your day.. One smile..to see how she is looking today...Trust me ..its heaven..
We . I mean me and Ankur still crib for the one to come into our lives..I know I will be getting bumps, I mean heavy bumps when I meet both of them..Do I regret..Naaaa..He, I mean Uday is one of the best one to be with you..He is now actually gone "THIN"..to compliment the couple's look. He also gladly admit that..
The "WHAT AN IDEA SIRJEE" worked for him..daily walk for 5 hours...I mean walk while you talk has probably done the trick. This is actually one of the best ways to get in shape..I mean having some one close to you. Let me list down the advantages for having "HER " in anyone's life..This is actually in general ..So no offences to anyone..And you can continue to Like Uday..

You do not get bored easily.
You do not have to remember time..As you will always be late in her words or "BY HER WATCH".
You end up forgetting your birthday to remember her's..
Your pocket will always be empty..
Your bike will always be on RESERVE..
You salary will be like..So LESS. due to monthly installments..or investment in your (I mean her) future..
and only God knows what are the returns ;-)..
You will suddenly develop patience.
You will be more confused than ever..
You will be a bad driver.
You will be over enthusiastic.
You will forget directions.
You will over shoot your expenses.
You will fight with your friends.. Mood thek nhi hai..baad mein baat karte hain..
You will end up the YOGA MASTER for laughing therapy.
You will forget to take your phone to office...or wearing socks with shoes.
You will end up putting your clothes in the fridge.
Your phone will always be on charging.
You will end up having less food and thus saving bucks for recharge.
You will try to try to not to fight..but it ends up in a heated argument.
You will kill your ego for her..and not for your boss.
You will be always free on Saturday and Sunday for her.
You will always be ready in 2 minutes..but end up being late by 2 hours..reason off course is traffic..We know.

You can catch the love bird's in the metro.in a cab..in a office table desk..in lunch sharing that favorite dish...calling each other with their nick names or special "SECRET" names..Feels nice to be under water in it desperately trying to connect the phone after a weak connection..As if the two words are a world for you..You want to be associated with the one like a wireless connection..with her always..All those who have found their love are lucky one's..Some one up there is watching you.guiding you in every sense. Only request from my end..Please do not fight with each other any time..rather than you can fight with me and keep only "LOVE" for each other.. God bless you both (UDAY and G********I)....

Me and " Unknown"...

For my love one..A small poem.
I saw the pain in your eyes,when you were looking towards your friend.
As she bend forward to wear the ring from her husband.
I know you always wanted to be in her place for the moment,
A mute man is standing up there waiting for you with the ornament..

Show me a sign and I promise I will come to pick you up,
Please do not worry, I hope this time I am having all my luck..
I promise to never ever let you go,
Please give me a chance to say "I LOVE YOU" more than you  actually thought you were...

Thank you..for my ATONEMENT

The above thank you is for my parents, my sister and my family..
Yesterday's sorry was to a Gol Guppa wala..On Ring road ..Just thought of having them...Oh boy..the quantity.."ANKIT" that gol guppa wala said "AAP TOH TANKAR HO"..He was actually surprised to see me having 23 Gol Guppas..ie "ATTA and SUJI" wale combined..Firstly he asked..What type you want..I said to him..Bus "AAN DEE".."JEHDI MARJI DAYEE JA"...Then I think he must have been tired serving..and when did i stopped ??...Just saw Bhale papri in his other container..

Start of the "GOL Guppa" serving..

The Man was from Badaun. Those of who do not know..its after moradabad..ie on highway to "JIM CORBET PARK"..ie near to Bareilly. He came here to make a modest living, and trying his level best to help the family back home.  That 23rd GOP Guppa brought a smile to his face.I wonder what was there in rest of them ?

Laughing on my 23rd Gol Guppa..The man "ankit" was his name..Said.."AAP ne bhi GOL Guppa" ban jana hai kisi din..
He was from BDAUN..Near Moradabad..Oh ho..you do not know moradabad..its near Bareilly..

Any way my poem for her..

Its like a daily wish for me, how come not a kiss for me ??
The happiness in and around me is only because of you my miss.
Walking down the stairs , reminds me of your flip flops,
When I close my eyes , I see you in your lovely top...

Going on and on for you, in you, with you..
Seems like its an end for all my blues..
I still hope to see you on that corner, waiting for me,
Apologies, but the traffic was too much and I was negotiating my way in between..

My wish is for patience and persistence is unanswered,
Happy for you, and I hope God grants it and him to you..
And I know you deserve a better person in every sense,
Question is will you settle for this joyous youth ??

The "GOOD NIGHT"....

"Don't say goodbye say goodnight so it's not over" - "by Binocular" 


I see you every time in my face, my smile, my tears every where..And you are the reason..the only reason for me. Its like I can't stop thinking ..I can't stop thinking of you...It simply brings smile on my face..I do not know the reason why...

I always wished to hear that "good night" from you ,
Do not make it right but please take it out of your sight , 
As I do not want you to leave me like this , 
A night alone to me is like a years of a yawn without any eternal bliss..

I want to wake up next to you every morning ,
See your eyes with a hope of a life time,
Trust me I am doing my best to make it come true,
I know its taking time , and Its the patience I am developing to be with you..

Its like the best thing that every would or could happen to me ,
Simply saying , I am equally not enjoying this season of being lonely.
Hoping for it to come true in the future,
And I have faith that some day could be today...

कुछ नहीं होगा मगर कुछ तोह होगा , एक उम्मीद आज भी इस दिल में रहती है।

अपने व्वादे पे क्यूँ मुकरे हम , आज भी इतने दिनों के बाद इस बात का ग़म है मुझे
प्यार ही है मुझे और फिर क्यूँ अपने दम पे मुझे ग़म है
जिंदगी में जोह मिला उसको अपना बना लियेया
क्या दिन क्या रात,  और एक गुलशन अपने लियेया सजा लिया

 क्या पता था के  ख़ुशी सिर्फ दो पल की मेहमान है
एक हम ही थे जिसे पता था के बस अब उस एक पल में हे अब जान है।
दिन रात सिर्फ उसी के लियेया जी रहे थे, कभी लफ्ज़ कभी शब्द उसके के लियेया पी रहे थे
अब जाने क्या पता कहाँ पे यह ले जाएगी जिंदगी

एक उम्मीद हे है जिसके सहारे जीयेया जाएगी यह जिंदगी।
शायद कुछ कमी मुझ से हे रह गए होगी
जो के उसको नहीं प् सका यह दिल।
समां भी था , शब्द  भी थे और एक आस थी "तू कभी तोह मिल ".....

Today's song.

"Mera kuch saamaan" - "Ijaazat - 1987"

"Can't  get you off my mind this time" - "August Rush 2007 "

I try to find you in every little word I can,
Be it a metro or a word out side a can (Bottle can),
Trying to find your face in the crowd,
Some thing reminds me of you and I am proud.

Proud for what ?
To have loved you like I would have thought,
I pray to God to grant the wish my "THY has",
She is the one to make me realize what is the meaning "CRY" has.

I am not too weak or too strong,
Simply not having the strength to understand why its me ???
For the reason I do not know , these were not the seed that were sown,
I do not want to own, but to sink in them before I drown..

Thank you.

Thank you.

Today's song....Only for "HER"..and the TRUTH..on my WALL...

"John Meyer - Say what you need to say"..

Yesterday's discussion was a bit wild,
And I have not done my net practice for a while,
Just waiting patiently for the cancellation of the options,
To convince them its not a "option" but the "ONLY REASON"..

Its simply too hard to let it go,
All you can associate it with "SANJOG".
Probably we are hiding behind the word to accept the defeat,
I will not bug down achieving my "FEAST".

Having the freedom to make them go down the wish lane of mine,
Do not want them to think its not their way, and it will not shine.
It ended up with consideration of going  ahead with "MY WISH",
Its all they said, after hearing my plea to have my "DISH"..

"Not the END"
Picture abhi baaki hai..


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Want you to know about what happened to me last year in March,
I was in a hospital for a week , please do not ask.
All the tests were done to find the increase of heart beat,
AIIMS, PGI every one said , they could not figure out the reason for this heat.

Changing the life style was all they could advice,
Even after 7 day observation of the heart beat could not figure out.
Only option was to change the job from the after market to a semi plant one,
I still do not know the reason behind this one.

During dehradun visit I met "KARNAIL SINGH".
a war veteran of 99' who helped me its not done,
I told him that I do not know what will happen next,
He was the only one who said, leave it to him..Its just a test.

Not a explanation to console my position or a "MADE EXPLANATION",
Its the truth I wanted to say it to you during the conversation.
I or else we will be coming for you,
I am not having the day when it will end my blues..

Why I am Posting it on the net is because of the truth I wanted to tell you,
Please do not find a reason that I have "GIVEN up".
I only have the truth for you and nothing else.
Words will be few and if only emotions could do...

Thank you.
Blogger boy.
S******k..
Many more names..

My Atonement..for making her "CRY"..for "HURTING" her..and many more..

One of the best things that I could have ever done for her is " I do not know".  Every day at night I just pray to him ,to keep her happy. For me, I am going through my ATONEMENT phase of saying sorry to every person I meet in a day..Bit awkward..but as I did not got a chance to say this to you..Now perhaps you are an addition to the list who think I am mad ..No no... you are right..Ankur, Uday and every one thinks the same..The most unrealistic things done in most unrealistic ways by me..off course..Die hard believer of Saathiya..the ring tone says it all...Today's morning start was with a "LOVE SONG"...SAVAGE Garden..."I will be your wish, I will be your dream"...and Half of the metro saw me singing and burst into laughter..Then I realized it was way too much..Any way..I was imagining you..Eyes were closed and ears too..

Today' s SORRY was to a OWNER of a KULCHA Wala..who was class 10th passed in Hindi Medium.. had a beautiful lunch on the RING road with him..Cracked 3 jokes to make him open..and heard his story..Said sorry to him..and to "HER..MY SHE"...why so..As I told its my atonement for her..I did not want to hurt her in any way or in any sense..It was purely and simply un intentional..I am Sorry for that and apologies.. 

The best words came from the old man.."DHANYAWAD ...BABAJI WAHEGURU"..He was able to understand my need, though I have not spoken to him about this..and "BABAJi" by my beard..When I actually told him my age..he said..."KYUN MAZAAK KARTE HO?"...I know why people say me uncle jee..Thek hai..chalta hai..I guess I got a new name..He was then busy reading his hindi newspaper..Then I realized we are actually lucky to be born like this..and we simply take this for granted. 

Sharing a joke with a OWNER "KULCHA WALA"..He had a POLIO in his leg..and could barely stand...See the cousing in red..leaning down for the joke..

Finally the Old man smiled..and greeted with a "MIRCHI" ka aachaar..which I could not say "NO"..As it was gift from the humble man I have met..I might have hurt many people along my journey..Just want to say sorry to all of you..and to "SHE"..I still do..and will keep on doing this just to clean my guilt of hurting you..

I forgot my poem for you.

The song that played this morning was for you,
Smile for me..it looks great on you..
Your 2 second pause when I asked you your number was acknowledged,
I now you did not have had any reason in the mind to say "Dude I am In my College"..

That instance still reminds me of my friday,
Hell was at loose and I could not figure it out..was it a dry day ?
I am having the same pasted on the notepad on my desktop,
Just to remind me every time, I have done wrong right from the start spot.

To me somethings are worth waiting for,
Every day I remind my self, its the patience that I am being taught for.
With no "IF's" and "BUT's" attached..I only have to say this.
You were, you are and you will be only "THE ONE" for me "MY MISS"..

Trust me..with Patience of "NINE YARDS" this time....

My call..

I can't control my self after seeing you like this,
You definitely would not have expected this it to happen like this.
The feet trembled and the eye's could not connect..
But it was the only thing, that I could do at my best.

I am sorry, it must have a frightening effect,
And your thinking about me could have easily changed to this fact.
Coming un announced does some time sound foolish to me.
And I did not have your number to seek permission from my "SHE"..

The reservation and hesitation is the only word I am able to understand,
Its nice that you need a proof before holding some one's hand.
I am only asking for a chance to clarify,
And I am not going to vanish any time from your sight...

Find..Finding and Found...."MY" Happiness....

I dream of my "Jennie" to surprise me with her wand,
And I am sorry to ignore you, but please do not put me in the sand.
Even I know some magic tricks to keep you on your toes,
There is a storm coming , so just be careful from the door..

Watch you back, I may be standing there adoring you,
Please don't turn, and you may spoil my brilliant view.
The way you hair comes on your face is like, I cannot describe the preview.
And that "PECULIAR" bindi of yours completes the view.

If you can't get out, then get in complete my friend,
Ever Anxious to see whats up is in the store, at that bend.
Some time I laugh at me, what's all this about ??
I say that to me..do not have a "DOUBT "..

Love is like a food, and it takes time to digest,
Best exercise is to keep walking, till nothing is left..
Faster you do faster are the results,
Simple..all you have to do is Just keep breathing and hold the "PULSE"..

WELL BEGUN IS HALF DONE........