The Obvious so called WHY ?

Not quite usually myself I was..though it was also not awkward...
To be true its not strange of thoughts to describe the three alphabet word..
Being in some sort of just another world..
Phrase is not mere just an incidence but it easily describes...what has actually kept me on hold..

For the reason I try to avoid saying it to someone..
The moment you express ..people vanish in a thin air..as if it was for some fun..
May be that's why I needed you my blog..
Being more than happy to have shared me with you...else frankly I do not wanted to sound like as if I Sob.

I simply could not have asked for anything more than you..
Always there..no matter what happens to me..in blues or else in my true virtue..
Could easily see my refection in you..perhaps that's the best way to say thank you..
No matter what happens you my blog...were there always.. fighting with me for the truth..

Of what I ever wanted to say...but never found the words..
As for every one it meant I am always in some despair..
Guess what..I have still not found the answer "WHY" its you I always come back..
Is it I love you..so should I say...no one has best understood me..at times as you always do..

At last I hope to find my so called "ONE"...
Don't laugh at me...or get angry..you will always there..as its never so called finished and done..
Hope to see my "ONE" with you in you..standing up there being the meaning for my lines..
Its not over.as I always have faith.some day if not today I will find some one to walk with me in the blinds...

Undefined State...of MIND..this DAY..

Growing old seems to be the only definite state with me..
Posing aside the agony associated of so called me being lonely..
What ever the fact and the explanation I could give..
Have been all false as I still live with the guilt for you to forgive..

I never understood what the people along have to say..
Raise your voice when you do not feel its okay..
But do I put anything behind the voice they want to make..
Never really accepted the opinion ..taking it to be just a mere game..

Its  true the voice is some what in dilapidated state.
Blame games have begun in the mind..cursing it with a pointed finger on my so called fate..
Still I have been waiting for you as if it was a bait..
Hope the time comes when you say yes before its too late..

I wish the words could some how reach you..
Before its too cold waiting for a hope to end my so called blues..
The point that I want to make..
There is no one except you I wanted to have my valentine cake..

Distress...

Been a while..since I saw you...
Felling wild..every time..I think..no one is near me..except you..
The more...I try to relate..
It gets worse ...and goes to bad..remembering the date..

Its nowhere close to what I felt..
Seeing your face it was like heaven....as my heart did MELT...
Even though in the remotest of the corner I did not meant...
But its the heart that leads to you..every time I bet..

Sarcastic world and awkward smile...
Feels beneath as if no in the heart it lies..
Not today..nor yesterday..
I have prayed to you for you..much more beyond I think of me..

If I could TURN back TIME for my "ONE"....

Will there be some one some day ? who will say I do not want you to go ?
Beyond time and the without looking at the watch..say "I do"...
Not just for the matter of words spoken...
But to actually understand...they meant much more ...rather than just said and done...

Happiness some time is simply...felt in the presence ..
And to be true..I am actually of the worried lot in your absence..
May be I think too much....making every thing out of nothing....simply creating a fuss..
Look back..its me who is actually running behind your moving bus..

I some how have always missed the opportunity ..
Call me to be a bit lackluster .... but the problem could be actually me..
Its not I tend to choke up at the actual moment..
To be true..I have never got a chance to say those three words..for that I am sorry and indeed repent..

I rewind...for you my "ONE"..

As I look back at the moments we shared..
Its always been an honor though repeatedly I might not have been all together fair..
Some thing perhaps was there between you and me..
Call it to be destiny..and we are sitting apart....perhaps blaming "HE"..

To be close is all I ever desired from you...
Happiness some time....makes me feel..am I still worth while to have actually been pursued..
Knocking at the door again and again..
Hoping for the gain..but only to see myself in much more pain..

Never ever I felt I missed you..
And you are always in here some were since June..
Might be a lucky affair..seems like..it was always there..
What ever be the reason...I know its you ...simply hiding away from me is now not at all fair...

Beleaguered Mind....with you my "ONE"..

I wanted to say..please put it like this and move on,
Saying a sorry and feeling guilty is worth it ..but the feeling is gone
Of the fact it some how has still associated me with you..
How ever I still always felt..what we had was simply the best and true.

You might deny it...but that does not make me think other wise..
Trust me...you have always been and remain as my lucky prize..
Irrespective even if we are not together..
To be true..its only one of the thing that have always have made me some what bothered..

Stories it looks like most of the time with he meanings not coming through..
Some time I feel as if I am begging it from you to show me some thing sort of a proof..
Deep in my heart I know and believe in you as its was never a spoof.
Only left with to shout on top of my voice that I love you standing up there on that roof..

SOLD Everthing..

Sold everthing for LOVE.....




Some dreams are never dead,
Some wishes are never fulfilled.
Some waste their life crying,
And other in the wait of dying.

Some people are true,
And have faced the wrath of everyone.
Some people do not get what they want,
Some do not get what they deserve.

Some live in the moments forever,
While some die thinking to get to heaven.
Some people lie and get what they want,
Others try and die without leaving a font.

Some people live in their ego, throughout,
Some boastful, while some here still to close.
Some think defeat as a victory,
And some failure as an end.

Its just the perception of the mind,
As the end is not defined.
Just a thought of the mind,
And never leave anything behind.
But try ever time to get the reason,
In my case I am writing but inside I am dying..

Where I left...you.....My "ONE"...

Some where I left you on my back...
Was it only for some time..and never knew you will come to me just like that...
And say..how could you forget me ??....if I was your destiny..
I laughed and stopped for a moment..gazed at you...looked like as if you are some where in me..

To make it sound worth every pound...
It was has always been the matter of those words..
If spoken for you..could have easily changed the so called course of the destiny..
Easily defined the language between us..guess it was only you and me...

No one could understand what we had...
Blamed time and again for living in the so called self induced exile of the past..
Now the reasons's and the letters laugh on me..for the explanations given..
Twisting them time and again for a PRAY to GOD..some day YOU and ME just might again begun...

Too much with and for my "ONE".....

me and you and the other way round you and me,
No matter how many times I write it..strike it...
Always it was and has been irreplaceable ..not even by a BIT..
Makes me feel so much confused..including the whole scenario..
Asking you never to leave me...with the words .."Please don't go"..

Yes its stuck in my head...which includes your pic and the last goodbye..
But frankly speaking I have dismissed this option completely..don't call me to be shy..
Just the name of you , makes that smile to come again..
which truly some what sub dudes the insane pain..

Might go all over again repeating the lines and the words..
Which have lost their meaning and the fragrance..call them to be dried or deprived of LOVE..
All I am saying is to let them be happy again..with your irresistible touch...
Keeping a mum sad face with fingers crossed...and seeing you with a teary eyes..hope I am not asking for too much..

Continuous........For my "ONE"

Wicked it is...explaining the situation I am presently stuck with..

Does it mean..I am trying hard not to leave your from me..my miss..

What ever ..as they say..its foolish of me to expect you to come back..

After what I have done..simply irreplaceable..as its the truth that has haunted me since that..

Call it to be like..as if.I have been asked to separate me from my soul..

How could that be ever possible..as I still wait for you standing next to the pole.

Call me to be a beleaguered one...and yes I dream of you as my ONE..

From that day to some day..it never felt..as if I am complete..

Please take me away from you...some thing troubles me from inside..

Really hard to control myself..as it too difficult for me to confide..

Do not read me..from standing up there..

Come closer..as I am not afraid to admit anything..as Finally its the time to come out with our flair...