Patience called "Life"...

Patience called my life to slow down a bit,
Change the mind...while living in the thought...of coming out from the so called shit..
In which, I am stuck for so long...
Not able to define the state with a so old song..

You end up discussing and parting away with the one..
Living in a so called dream of moving away without saying its done..
Being there and moving away from the past is the obvious choice..
I loved blue...even though your choice was always turquoise..

Moving away and saying those lines were actually intuitive..
Even though..we ended up mostly disagreeing ..not completing the task as a unit..
Most of the time I might have contradicted and forced my opinion..
I some time regret it..not being able to listen to you..living in oblivion..

To be true..I felt some how..I have come back..
For what actually I as looking for..coming back on the track..
Done every thing that could be done to be with you..
Perhaps its time to leave it to God..hope he gives his consent to continue..

Thank you...my "ONE"....

I smile all the day thinking of you..
As some one some where breaths the air of your name....and cherishes you view..
Some time he feels he has gone crazy...
But the picture is some what much more clear...as before it was all hazy..

You wish to pray for her all the while..you move ahead..
Hoping  for a miracle some how...and waiting to listen to the magical word "YES"..
She has actually given a new dimension to the words and lines.
Her simplicity is the beauty ....which so far has been hidden behind time..

Off late..I can't keep her out of my head...
Communication is to strong..as every time a red light is blinking above my cell..
Its kinda made me happy and self content..
To be true its all because of her..and lucky I found her in this so called bent..

What ever may be the reason..
She is the one..who is my love for all the season's
I cannot put this day to some day any more,
As the day is today..So trust me...As for all the other day's  I might have sounded like a bore...

Back Again...

Some times I think...how could I ever be loved..
Its the strangest of the facts to admit now..that she is now actually called my dove..
Of all the promises and the plannings ahead..
I wish for all of it to unravel soon..as much more about it has been said..

Her wishes have actually taken me aback and confused me to tard....
Rather than loving me..she has her eyes set.. on my credit card..
I hope its all dresses she want..and no no its not about her bags..
Call it to be an independent women..her bill sinks my heart down just like that..

Recently discovered her crazy passion about work outs..
But she seldom admits it need..even though she has a daily full bowl of sprouts..
No way I could make her to understand , what her smile actually means for me..
One thing is for sure...she is the only one I needed in my life..to set me free..

Once again God  has given me a reason behind my smile,
Defining it is short...but justice would also not be done..if I try to summarize..
Some how..she has brought me back to what I actually was..
Hope to move with her for a life time..without any ifs or buts..or a safety clause..

The best of every thing with you my "ONE"..

We do believe in to have the best of everything..
Call it to be our dream..but its a thin line of hope which we actually cling..
Wishing every thing will be all right..
Its actually some how we also know we can pull this off in our deep inside..

The obvious expectations at time have produced unexpected results..
No, I never blame them..as the level of expectation is in your own hands ...and so is your pulse..
Need not have to remind myself to hold on..
But how could I...As I have been so long for a connection to my love song..

Putting off this day to some day...time and again..
Saying it to me..hurry up buddy..you might end up missing the train..
Lackluster or a lad back attitude..
Guess what..If I ask you...usual perception is its too fast ..too soon..

I never wanted to sound selfish of my own..
Perhaps the reason of your existence is finally known..
To make myself happy and self content..
Never actually liked some one like you...for me..you actually meant like a drop of fresh rain..

The Obvious so called WHY ?

Not quite usually myself I was..though it was also not awkward...
To be true its not strange of thoughts to describe the three alphabet word..
Being in some sort of just another world..
Phrase is not mere just an incidence but it easily describes...what has actually kept me on hold..

For the reason I try to avoid saying it to someone..
The moment you express ..people vanish in a thin air..as if it was for some fun..
May be that's why I needed you my blog..
Being more than happy to have shared me with you...else frankly I do not wanted to sound like as if I Sob.

I simply could not have asked for anything more than you..
Always there..no matter what happens to me..in blues or else in my true virtue..
Could easily see my refection in you..perhaps that's the best way to say thank you..
No matter what happens you my blog...were there always.. fighting with me for the truth..

Of what I ever wanted to say...but never found the words..
As for every one it meant I am always in some despair..
Guess what..I have still not found the answer "WHY" its you I always come back..
Is it I love you..so should I say...no one has best understood me..at times as you always do..

At last I hope to find my so called "ONE"...
Don't laugh at me...or get angry..you will always there..as its never so called finished and done..
Hope to see my "ONE" with you in you..standing up there being the meaning for my lines..
Its not over.as I always have faith.some day if not today I will find some one to walk with me in the blinds...

Undefined State...of MIND..this DAY..

Growing old seems to be the only definite state with me..
Posing aside the agony associated of so called me being lonely..
What ever the fact and the explanation I could give..
Have been all false as I still live with the guilt for you to forgive..

I never understood what the people along have to say..
Raise your voice when you do not feel its okay..
But do I put anything behind the voice they want to make..
Never really accepted the opinion ..taking it to be just a mere game..

Its  true the voice is some what in dilapidated state.
Blame games have begun in the mind..cursing it with a pointed finger on my so called fate..
Still I have been waiting for you as if it was a bait..
Hope the time comes when you say yes before its too late..

I wish the words could some how reach you..
Before its too cold waiting for a hope to end my so called blues..
The point that I want to make..
There is no one except you I wanted to have my valentine cake..

Distress...

Been a while..since I saw you...
Felling wild..every time..I think..no one is near me..except you..
The more...I try to relate..
It gets worse ...and goes to bad..remembering the date..

Its nowhere close to what I felt..
Seeing your face it was like heaven....as my heart did MELT...
Even though in the remotest of the corner I did not meant...
But its the heart that leads to you..every time I bet..

Sarcastic world and awkward smile...
Feels beneath as if no in the heart it lies..
Not today..nor yesterday..
I have prayed to you for you..much more beyond I think of me..

If I could TURN back TIME for my "ONE"....

Will there be some one some day ? who will say I do not want you to go ?
Beyond time and the without looking at the watch..say "I do"...
Not just for the matter of words spoken...
But to actually understand...they meant much more ...rather than just said and done...

Happiness some time is simply...felt in the presence ..
And to be true..I am actually of the worried lot in your absence..
May be I think too much....making every thing out of nothing....simply creating a fuss..
Look back..its me who is actually running behind your moving bus..

I some how have always missed the opportunity ..
Call me to be a bit lackluster .... but the problem could be actually me..
Its not I tend to choke up at the actual moment..
To be true..I have never got a chance to say those three words..for that I am sorry and indeed repent..

I rewind...for you my "ONE"..

As I look back at the moments we shared..
Its always been an honor though repeatedly I might not have been all together fair..
Some thing perhaps was there between you and me..
Call it to be destiny..and we are sitting apart....perhaps blaming "HE"..

To be close is all I ever desired from you...
Happiness some time....makes me feel..am I still worth while to have actually been pursued..
Knocking at the door again and again..
Hoping for the gain..but only to see myself in much more pain..

Never ever I felt I missed you..
And you are always in here some were since June..
Might be a lucky affair..seems like..it was always there..
What ever be the reason...I know its you ...simply hiding away from me is now not at all fair...

Beleaguered Mind....with you my "ONE"..

I wanted to say..please put it like this and move on,
Saying a sorry and feeling guilty is worth it ..but the feeling is gone
Of the fact it some how has still associated me with you..
How ever I still always felt..what we had was simply the best and true.

You might deny it...but that does not make me think other wise..
Trust me...you have always been and remain as my lucky prize..
Irrespective even if we are not together..
To be true..its only one of the thing that have always have made me some what bothered..

Stories it looks like most of the time with he meanings not coming through..
Some time I feel as if I am begging it from you to show me some thing sort of a proof..
Deep in my heart I know and believe in you as its was never a spoof.
Only left with to shout on top of my voice that I love you standing up there on that roof..