Thank u my dear friend...

I always wanted expected and fainted for all the hopes..

I always wanted as i would want it to be,
Change is all that i am able to see,
happy for the one who have moved on,
Guess was a fool,and why it took me too long.

forever was the word that i dreamt,
And it was never too simple,as i always seem it meant,
Wonder where it has all gone,
So simple to say, please move on...

Doing all the same every time,
Why not be kill my self for being blind...
but i love myself more, and i will forget you as if you never were.......

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Angry for''LOVE''.......

I always found myself in the middle of every problem.Might be because of the reason that i have habit of saying the truth.that too in a simple and an inefficient way..to which people always react with the strangest of reaction......''bull shit'',''no truth'',''filmy'', ''you are actually lying'',''you are actually saying this,but you do not mean it.....just to name a few...

the special one....

would love to laugh and cry with the special one.or laugh till i die or cry with it.and love the special one as if only she existed in this world..that's how that special one is special for me..till date never found out who is who..tired of lies,and promises.but its the difference that sets apart.

Would love to kiss the person as she laughs, to hold the person till we are on earth as last. Thank the god what he has given me in past.wake up every day seeing the face, wishing ''good morning'' as it makes my day.tried and failed many times..thank you god as still i am not able to define who do i need. Probably a person so true, not afraid to feel and say out loud...
I love u,i love u, i love u and i faint hearing that sound.

Don't knw why m writing all this, want people to read and make me feel.how badly i need some one special...but all i say, that special is in me, in my lines all time..but its the time that is taking its curse to paint the face, till then will have to make with the rhyme.. My fav line

''its your life, so make it large''
''don't just live in this world to breathe,but live for the moments that take ur breath away''

off lately tried to connect,but left only with my eyes all wet.foolish and having no self respect at times. But or guru's have said to love our enemy..so in this case the person just hurts you knowingly. Never to repent but say out loud,you are the reason that special one is still behind the clouds.

toh aaj aap kise khush kar rahe hain???

just saw this ad on tv..really hats off to the mind blowing concept behind this add..could easily be counted as the best ads ever made..went to my old dealer in hari nagar''rajiv motors''..and met the gate man ''rajiv'' and''ram bahadur''..they told me that they have not got any gift this diwali..

Just took them to om sweets and made them to buy dhodha and pannner kulchas..felt happiness as of this particular add..aacha laga unko khush dekh kar..

best of times.....much needed....thank you god...

thank you god for everything you have given to me ..i could not have asked for anything more than this..its ultimately all and everything given by you....when ever you think you are going to fall apart,he gives you a hand to move on insome other way of life..
One of the Best lines i have ever heard..
''trust him when he leads to a dead end,
and you have no other option but to jump...trust him either he will catch you or learn you how to fly''

its my wish that i die with a free heart..means there should not be any one in this world to whom i have hurt intentionally or other wise also..thats the reason i want to thank everyone for what they have made me today....the thank also goes to those who have hurt me...but still i want to be frnd with them..as without them i would not hve been like this..

As a matter of fact the experience or the things you get to learn from this is simply magnificient..it breaks you down to hell,and then you have to rise upto the occasion to make yourself count..
I love the way i am..hurt but ready fall again in the unknown...isimply love you god..and thank you again for everything.

tears still roll down...

only expected the truth and nothing else...some of the people simply do not realize how much important and how much necessary it is..even if you are doing your last final good bye..that atleast the person is going with a free heart, who can trust some one in future again..i laugh at myself about what i have done. How can i complain if this is and was my choice,and then how can i explain..


Just wanted to put all the theories to rest,
as have never ever passed in this test.
Some call it pain and other's insane,
hold my hand,to stop me from going in it again.

Hard to explain and to believe,
the reason is still you in these lines,but its the truth i seek.
Again and again its the same old lines,
some time its the rhyme, but most of time i am unable to define.

I cry,i love,i still put you infront of the faith i have in him,
was it destiny or a wish that you wanted me as a string,
so that it could be played at will,
as i still stand in the rain hoping to start or end it up that hill...

lonely...

do we always need or do we always act or do we always knew, and rest of the time i do....waiting and waiting for the best i mean and i feel the best to happen...just the way i want, simple and straight..we always never ever expect how we can and in what form we can have happiness from this world..

From people - have had many''beautiful failed experiments done on me''...but now i have started counting them as my stepping stones.....they come and go.destroy you completely..you just lick ur wounds,and stay there..now have mastered the art of anger management.

always me with me...

happiness can also be found being at peace...whether you are free at heart,know the no one will be there for you..then you share it alone..sing the tone you like,sitting at ease..amd yess no ome will understand why you are still happy in it...guess the next hand knows if you are lonely, the other hand will hold it...to fake it that you are not alone..why fake,or just i want to think that its the only way i can some how control my self with this bluff...


I want to believe in this bluff,
and yess for it i have had enough,
for the first time i am not having the strength,
to continue forward,but it has to end.

Today or tomorrow faith is all i have,
and all before it are sorrows,
its always the same every time,
happiness is all i want, but why is it always sublime.

being late

never wanted to be late for any sort of an occasion..but was late for the first interaction..and o boy i was or i am extremely sorry for what happenes..but can be clearly attributed to the mismanagement of time..may be and it is too much..i apologiese for that.....waise bhi i am very much frustrated that i screwed the morning.and rest as u say it followed..mood thoh khrab heee tha..so it just continued along...

I am Sorry....But I Still love you..

I never wanted to say this thing to you. But had no other option but to leave you.. I love you for what you are and what you have given me in Life. I am sorry for saying anything wrong or bad..

Wish and hope you forgive..