Moving..dragging myself..unsuccessfully....

I tired so hard to forget you...
But its the smile that always makes me think of you :)
So called with a missing nose..
All I wanted and waited was actually to propose..

Else never got a chance to say those words..
Don't understand some how..where every time my rhyme actually goes..
Words are now all together made to repeat..
I have no words to describe me..rather than calling me decimated....else I would have rejoiced on my feet..

Is it the respect that has made me so much weak..
Or is it the fact I know as usual you will be reading this..keeping mum..making me guilty of my defeat..
I loved you more than any thing else..and even cried some time likea hell..
My happiness actually knew no bounds..but it was cut short..and that's when I fell..

From the virtue to the virtual world of mine..
I still see you...even when my eyes...are wet..and ask me "Is loving you was a crime ??"
Or the people might ask...how come you love and like some one...in short span..
The words I say....."She is the one" I have been missing every day...as it..my life was without a fan..

Need not have to convince any one to believe what I say..
Its the choice you and I make....says all...from this day to that day..
I might overshoot the emotions out of my head..
But the thing is..I had no one who was so much in me...like my destiny..

I am sorry :(

Started with a "HOPE" for my one :)

Will I be able to forget the need ...of having some one..
Guess what..am I expecting too much..and is it life making my fun ?
For the unasked questions and so called obvious answers..
Never really like them.... and just running behind my past..that's it..

Obvious reason is to stay..a float..
Never really know..am I the sea or..simply travelling in some body's else boat...
Most of the time ..I believe I am made a scrape goat...
Its true..as it some time...the silly thoughts inside..made me look worse..

I tried to get the feeling out of me...but failed miserably..
As all the stories relate to you...even in red..I wonder why I still like blue..
It was all much very obvious to predict my end..
May be its the past that has haunted me..at the corner of that bend..

What ever..I try to write and explain...
And I know nothing will come out without saying you or me as insane..
The best may be..I should live like this feeling you up as my force..
Its a thin ray of hope..that reminds me..the doors up there are still not closed..

Its like...

Its like..I have never laughed so much..
For whatever numerous reasons as it may sound like a buzz..
And I look at myself..standing up there..
Stuck on the "ONE"...looking up in despair..

No its not the correct rhyme..
And may be its also not about the time..
Forget about the days ahead....
Felt like...as if there has not been a bigger threat..

Repeat it may seem..to me..
Questions are all but the same..but the actual blame is on the destiny..
Patience and the persistence going out for toss..
Feels like...its all the but more..like a floss..

With no time to look back and analyse..
Am , I the stupid one..waiting to see those eyes..
The answer is ..to sublime...
That is why I am Quietly waiting for my own time...