Do not find FAULT...

Please do not find Fault..Aise bando ke saath aisa hota rehta hain..Life hain .Chalti hain..Rab utton sab dekhda hai..Thank you for teaching me how to love, how to live. World has been amazing in the past 15 days. I some times thought as If I am living in some dream. Always had some thing in mind, "DARR" and now same has happened..But happy with the creation of the GOD..Would love to in "IT" or be "STILL IN IT"..Time ka pata nahi lagta, itna mast hota hain..Talking in Petrol Pump for 2 hrs on 1st August( Chandigarh, 44 sector), was one of the most wonder full time I could imagine....

Was 15th Day ANNIVESARY....

Sometime I laugh, and rest of the times I cry..And its true I am, me, myself to be blamed for my so called "THIS SITUATION"..Each and every time I try or else some how try to relate, compromise, but actually try to convince my self. That I am in a Goody GOODY situation. And now its the end of every thing, rest will ultimately be good. Too much DESPO for "IT TO HAPPEN"..Allowing time and again people to walk away with a victorious snap saying " CONQUERED AND DUMPED", That too without any fuss..Was like a piece of cake, and they also would have never thought it to be too simple.." AAP NAHI SAMJHE" , "MAINE TOH PEHLE BOLA THA" , "KOI AUR HOGA APKE LIYEA"...Kya baat hain....Phir FUDU KHICH GAYA...

First RELIANCE ka phone and now TATA ka..Wonder what's next..and haann..the person finally says " MESSAGES DELETE KAR DO (2 days before this - Just wonder if every thing was pre planned, what ever), PHOTO UDA DO, DELETE THE RECORDING OR SAVED CONVERSATION's" agar kee ho bina bataye....Dump the old stuff and start a fresh..Gusaa, some times I think ke...........................................





Was waiting for this thing to happen,
But not that much soon,
Now the sequence has changed from "MY MOON" to "FORGET ME SOON"

I guess the planning started from a day or two before,
Now I know, why old messaged were requested to be deleted,
And the picture asked to be trashed,
I guess or I know "I WAS BEING MAD"

There is no so called "TRUTH IN IT".
As every time you know to share it,
To others its the same as BULL SHIT..
Continue to say and make the other person feel you are unaware,
but may I ask, Do I look like your MARE..

I still like to be with you,
But you need GUTS to confront the TRUTH.
Let it prevail, if you want the other person to understand,
As now the words alone won't say or mean "IT WAS NOT PLANNED"




Fudu haain, Budhu hain seedhe hain,
But don't know ke is mein RULES heee toh nahi hain..So every TRUTH is a LIE, Every promise to be BROKEN....So keep guessing!!!

Only the TRUTH....Let it prevail.....

Only and only the truth, and let it prevail.If it happens to be the reason of your failure today. "Bahut saara likhan hai abhi"....Happiness don't know what it is. But from the last Saturday was on cloud nine and was about to meet "MY GIRL"..Reached late last night, and I have had asked "MY GIRL" what to wear. I wore the best new T Shirt I had, and believe me my parents were also surprised " MUNDA KITHEE JA REHA HAI??"...Went to the Gurudwara to pray for the best thing to happen.But As some thing else was planned, Just had an intuition that some thing, some thing would go wrong. And it exactly happened like it..Booked a table in Cafe Coffee day ( B Block exit, towards Panchkuian Road) bought 2 chocolates to be gifted as a surprise to "MY GIRL" by the staff there.. Still standing there writing this blog in the "SECURITY GUARD's SHED"..Actually, I had my lunch with him.." USKE SAATH BAITH KE CHOCOLATE KHAYE"..and then "LUNCH"..He even offered me a "DRINK"...Bola ke "SARDARJEE ISKO PEE LOO,SAB THEK"..but kya kare nahi peete...Uski shift 8 pm pe change hain.and I will come back home by then...

For the first time in my life I now know how it feels when people say " I LOVE WALKING IN RAIN",As no one actually knows UR"CRYING".. Saala rooh rooh ke haal kharab kar liya..when he was the one who lend me his shoulder..

Koi bolta hai "PARENT's ki problem hain" koi "Friend is not awake"..Let them decide what it is. Gussa Bahut hain, "But sikhaya nahi hai waste karna ghar waalo ne kisi Cheez ko"..As everything is precious. Was a 15 day old crash course..would take a time to get, but at least I am back to my so called " MONOTONOUS" writing style.but the positive thing this time is that, I am having ideas of 2 separate individuals. Still in madly in LOVE with "My GIRL"..But let it be fictitious one this time..As it was just a game being played.With me the new entrant , I am sorry a "NEW AMATURE PLAYER" being introduced. Just stressing the fact on AMATURE..Feelings,personal life shattered in matter of a message "CAN'T HELP"....But DILL WADHAA CHAIYEDAA hunda ee..and I am proud of my DIDI and my 2 friends and of course my family who completely understands me..Gussa dikha ke kuch nahi hota, you actually pull the mud on the other person and then same is poured on you. So let it as it is.

And if it has to happen by some how. It will happen. Waise will be going to Amritsar on 20th August so will obviously be praying for "SARBAT DA BHALA" as always..But thank you for another lesson, yess it was learnt hard. But what ever it was it was nice and good, or else mind blowing..Wishing "GOOD NITE", GOOD MORNING", BYE" all with "PYAR SE"....DIL se kiya joh bhi kiya, so no REGRETS....But aacha lagta hain, when some one wishes you that, woh bhi "ITNA PYAR SE"....And if some one asks ke where is the person..

"I WILL SAY SHE IS THAT MUCH CLOSE, THAT EVEN WITH MY EYES CLOSES I AM NOT ABLE TO SEE HER"

Updating my STATUS on BLOGSPOT and not FACEBOOK..just kidding.but NERVOUS MOMENTS captured from the bottom of my heart...

So close….so close, sometimes becomes difficult for me to breathe, forget about sleeping.. Not able to take you out from my mind, and each and every time fear of loosing you at any point of time. To me it’s the air I breathe with, world where I live in..Seem’s kinda old fashioned and shit at times..Best words that it can be described is “Killing me SOFTLY”..Negative thoughts just started pouring, don’t know from where. That’s when decided to write this. As no one was there up close with me to understand it.

Can be called a LONELY man..and this blog at times has proven to be my best friend. As I can easily explain the so called my “PLIGHT” of me in it..Some times I think that do I need to be under going some sort of conflicts (Mental one) to be able to write about this….and as Mr Panjaj Udas has said in his song “ JAANAM AAIHISTA KEEJIYEA BAATEIN………….SAANS KA SHOOR BHI NA SUN PAYE NA SUN PAYE”…….Aur AAHISTA KEEJIYEA BAATEIN”……

So how do I know that you are near mee…I just close my eyes and can see you holding my hand..Simple as that…Heart has become calm like a sea, as if no other wish ever existed in this world. And it seems I cannot ask for anything more from this world…my words will not end and I can keep on writing about it, but words are few so just wanted to save it for the other best moments to happen….As they always say that let it grow on you, and now I am beginning to experience so called LOVE for “MY GIRL”….