Right or Wrong....At least I have sung my "SONG"..

You Must allow me to tell you how ardently "I ADMIRE and LOVE YOU"...
More than anything else in this world..

I do not know what I have done is right or wrong. Nor I am here to glorify or justify my decisions and actions made. Only wish that you are listening to the words I speak. And I like you very much.. irrespective of the fact or decision you made or going to make.Its the truth..I can't deny.. No moment goes past , without thinking about you..You are every were with me..in me..In my talks..in the words I speak..in every moment I spend in a day..I like it..I kinda really like it..Actually I am in love with it.The days are like heaven...and I can barely count seven.Its not like I have lost my mind..But its too busy to find you in the blinds..I some time hold my bike at the red light and forget it to start ..and actually "ASK" her to move..I come back to my home and forget my bike at the metro station.It happens..Trust me..Its not a disadvantage of being in love..But the truth I am "DEEPLY" in love..

Does the actions or the words gona favor me, I think no..not any time sooner..I only want to embrace you in my arms..and will never ever let you go..Its like a secret strength to me.giving me the energy to carry on for you with you..And I know I am only having a pic of you with me for all this..So you can guess what I can or will be able to do with just a kiss. We make a perfect couple, I know that. Trust me..we will be better ..I will be better with you..not without you. The conversation I always had you in my dreams is superb..Just narrating an incident..

"You call me at 6:40 pm..that your gona be late..and will only be able to reach by 8:30 pm..I come to the metro station to pick you up..We have a secret Ice cream..The dinner is already ready for you..not cooked by me.Its only done to help you..We have our dinner.then you serve me my coffee..And in the next scene I am helping you out to cut the vegetables for the morning breakfast..A GOOD night kiss after that..I admit.I was up whole night waiting for more actually.Never mind, I am actually gona increase my monthly quota of it.
That's how beautiful our life is.." Call it a fiction??.. I think its the reality.

I never knew what it is..till I met you,
Its not the start of my blues..but a great news..
It actually brought a smile to every one's face,
And I am trying hard to maintain that pace..

Yes you can have all the space..and the moon,
Please be happy..and I am not asking you to help me in this tune.
What a great thing actually it is to be with you..
I can dump my watch or can stop it on JUNE..

Only to stop the time and preserve the moment in it,
Some time it does get messy , being perfect and it ends up in a pit.
No no its always me messing the things up.
Give me a chance to prove myself, and I am worth for this LOVE stuff...

Not the Color..And its the HEART that counts...

Skin Color does not matter..It the heart that counts..And  you are beautiful..I know..

Its not the skin color that counts, it the heart inside that matters.. The looks are not immortal..the heart is..those eyes..that smile..that fragrance is gona  last with me for the rest of my life..Some think its the first look that counts..to me I consider it only makes you to talk to some one.Not be "BE" with any one..The whole equation depends on the physiological mindset of individuals involved. What actually they are looking for "with" and in a relation..Could be "lust", could be "money"..could be "a life partner" ..could be "Freedom" and many more..Definitely you are looking forward to being happy..that's the basic criteria..why you want to be in it!!..Rest love can be found in any age..between any two crack pots.Trying to join their lives individually but some how not able to do it..Better way , take help from the one you know..And you will never regret when you "HOUSE" is converted to your "HOME"..That's togetherness to risk it all for the "ONE"..and trust me..that patience is worth the wait in Gold..

One of the lines spoken by my friend "ANKUR"..

Life is a mess..I or we know that...So ,.Lets get together and make it "A HELL"

That is exactly the way to go.You do not know what exactly gona happen next. And you explore your inner self for the happiness of other person. That skin is not gona last forever..nor are the look.So find the person who can keep you on your toes..surprise you every morning..Kiss you when you go to sleep..care for you , when you are low..Fight with you for your happiness..Support you irrespective of the result..Honor your words and the promise made..Make you feel the "HAPPIEST" person in the whole world..The favorite emotion.. YOU CRY AND SMILE AT THE SAME TIME.. 


The below lines have been spoken by Jagjit Singh..in one of this favorite gazal.
For those who cannot read it..a similar extract is mentioned below for the narration.


ਕਿਸੇ  ਨੇ   ਮਜਨੁ   ਨੂ   ਪੁਚੇਯਇਆ " ਤੇਰੀ   ਲੈਲਾ   ਦਿਸਦੀ   ਕਾਲੀ   ਵੇ"
ਮਜਨੁ   ਨੇ   ਜਵਾਬ   ਦਿਤਾ   "  ਤੇਰੀ   ਆਂਖ   ਨਾ   ਵੇਖਣ   ਵਾਲੀ   ਵੇ ..
ਵੇਦ   ਵੀ   ਚਿਟਾ   ਕੁਰਾਨ   ਵੀ   ਚਿਟੀ  ,   ਵਿਚ   ਸ਼ਿਯਾਈ    ਰਖ   ਦਿਤੀ   ਕਾਲੀ   ਵੇ ...
ਗੁਲਾਮ   ਫਰੀਦ   ਜਿਥੇ   ਆਖਿਯਾੰ   ਲਗੀਆਂ   ਓਥੇ   ਕਯਾ   ਗੋਰੀ   ਕ੍ਯਾ   ਕਾਲੀ   ਵੇ ..


Some one asked "Majnu" ..your Laila seems black to me.
Majnu Said.."Its not you who's gona see heer..and how dare you??"
Veed and quran both are white..and have black ink used to write words..
Gulam "FARID"..when you love someone..there is no white or black in it then..

Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Love ME....

Poem for you..

You seem to be working till late at night,
Don't you know , the dark circles will spoil my view.
Oh ho..common its not you, but to the circles I am talking to..
I know you want to complete your project on time.
You should take care of your health ..as its your life line..

Its a long way ahead you have to go,
His wishes are with you in every point, and may I have the permission to propose.
Trust me you will be fine along with me,
You can study all the night , but actually I am waiting for you to be free.

I wonder how would it be waking up next to you,
Dropping off you to work , in your sky blue ( Color of dress)..
It skips my heart beat, every time I try to impress,
And I am not going off to sleep without my "GOOD night " Kiss...

My wish for TRUE love..." My HER"..or "My SHE"..

I do..."Love you"..He who sends the wound ,also send's in the medicine..For me its you..

Love to me is unpredictable , unrealistic , unconditional , unreasonable and all the words with it. It really feels nice to sing a duet, even though I might sound a bit harsh..But who cares, you have your lovely voice too keep me with you for hours. Its the melody of the song that keeps the flow ticking . I can't remember a day that goes past thinking about you. It brings a "LAVISH" smile on my face when I sing in your tune..A new name I have got from you, and my friends simply love it. All I wanted was a wish to be with you, nothing more or less just to be in it. Some things change, some don't..I am not a sarcastic one, just preserving the essence in the fragrance of your hair. I suppose the story this time has not ended but stopped for a break, Only wishing for my partner to make up her mind..And lets party with a cake. I am actually having more than 1001 ways to love you. Confused ??..I can ..Believe me..Its like an addiction for me..I have to have it to be with you. The day seems empty when I never see your face..I spend close to 9 hours with you..every day..non stop..I can do more..but the system needs a shut down..Please don't complain or ask to increase my target to 24 hours. I hope some day it will be like this..

Our Small home..Watched by GOD.

My "OWN SMALL WORLD"..of me and you is unbelievable..We talk in it through "telepathy"..We can be at any place any time..just by wishing..And we both are magicians..Only thing we cannot change or influence is our heart..As my heart belongs to you and your heart belongs to me. I forgot about the brain thing..No you are not having brains in my world..Only I am having ...HAHAHAHAHAHA...I am not bifurcating.but just to avoid the argument "THING"...OKOKOK.. I understand..you have..But we will not fight or get angry with  each other..That's a pact..We make a perfect couple and will live the rest of our lives being happy..

"HAPPILY EVER AFTER". Being selfish.noo..not et all..And you are the OWNER of this world. I am happy being your co passenger ..And you drive me where ever you want to..I am more than just happy being with you..Your wish is my command. Trust me it will be granted. That's how I love you, more than anyone else in the world could even think about it.

I usually start my day stopping the alarm and checking out my phone,

Off course for your message, that did not come.

The anxiety keeps me awake daily till late night.

Refreshing my phone's browser..and its not like we have had a fight..

The feeling to be with you grows stronger and stronger as the day progress,

Wish to see you with me in your beautiful dress.

With the hair straight and eyes blue,

I am waiting to see you, and not jumping the queue.

Its hard to find the reason to continue loving you,

I can't deny , I have never felt like this being with you.

Trying hard to find your face in the life I live in,

And give you a sign, only to tell you  "TRUST me I am deep within"....

Brought Tears to my eyes...And they were of HAPPINESS..

Please Smile..Its better..And your blog completed a Year yesterday..

Its 11:15 am in the morning..and what a night..I mean what a night..Frankly its really tough to be awake  for a complete night..Hats off to the love birds.How u manage to keep up with your promises and then come to office "FRESH"..The lotions under eye dark spot..that pimples..are pretty nasty one's to hide..I remember a"PERSON" wiping the face with a "SANITIZED" napkin...YUUKKK..Then I thought where will I be applying the lotions on my face..You actually need to have a surface AREA ON FACE to be able to apply that..(In lighter vein)..Same as my "MILLION DOLLAR" smile disappears and requests are made of Facebook to please smile time and again..

Each morning you get up..See the profile of the "ONE" to find if she has replied to the message.But perhaps the wait seems to be long..But I will wait..Till when ??..I do not have an answer to that. Truth is I am happy drenched in and with you. I want to be like this for the rest of my life.No regrets...I love you this way..Even though you do not do..No issues..I am happy with you, for you, in you...only to be with you..Any way reading the replies to the last post was like visiting heaven..and No I am not too free to write and explain about it..Its simple maths..Addition of some thing increases the strength of the solution..You can go through the profile of any one..The "WALLPAPER" or "LIKES"..of miss you..."TEARS FOR YOU" will be there..Just a simple wish to all my heart broken friends..Do not regret it..Be proud of it..You gave in your 100% what you had..That's called "PASSION" to love some one with such an effect and purity that it cleans your heart in and out..To make you a better person in every sense..Madness to me is like moon to the sun..That it ultimately comes with time..

Some time or frankly speaking am I a Wrong person ?..Off lately I have been forced to think about this..Has it some thing to do with how do I look or behave..Tough one for me to configure it..It true it has broken me  down lately to the core, and I am unable to find the courage to replicate myself..

REMEMBER This is your version of the story..So its only 50%..true..You do not know what the other person has been going through..Respect that in every sense..  No matter what..

I still Love you..Reason is you..Your flipflop's your "BINDI"..Still not able to find what we call Bindi in English..

The day I try to forget you,
You come as a rain to my face,
All drenched in the happiness of the pain.
I am not complaining it to you,
Just to remind you there is a person who just wants to be with you..

Don't look back to see me crying,
I only want to love you unconditionally ,that's what I am always trying.
Why I am like this..actually the hormones of LOVE kinda overflow every time.
Its really hard some time to write seeing you and concentrating on the rhyme.

Its like being at the rooftop and waiting for it (Rain) to fall.
My happiness knew no bounds when I first saw your call.
Will be there for you in every situation irrespective of the fact we are not together,
And I will be always there watching for your feathers..

Our own LOVE BIRD's - UDAY and G********I.....

UDAY and G********I

The second name is being with held for the confidential reasons.. No no ...its not like they do not love each other..Actually Uday always is finding for one reason or another to talk to her.Take saturday's case, he was actually seeking advice for ankur and "TRYING " to make the conversation with her interesting.. Sach mein..Boys are like..They go to any extent to WOO the love of their life..What it meant for us.I mean to ankur and me..We lost a good one to a great person..Yes we are happy for both. Its a great feeling to be loved by the one, who loves you back..actually more than you love him or her.

We kinda remember the old days talking about "LADKI" nahi hai yaar..aur jab hai..then "LADKI" hai yaar Samjha kar..The language suddenly changes, the mood swings , those GOOD NIGHT wishes and kisses..The promises made..those late night talks..Waiting for her to see her atleast once before she boards the cab..and boring the next person in the cab to hell..not allowing him or her to sleep..Then waking up in the morning with a message of "GOOD morning"..That eagerness to reach your office just to see one look of her, and o boy that makes up your day.. One smile..to see how she is looking today...Trust me ..its heaven..
We . I mean me and Ankur still crib for the one to come into our lives..I know I will be getting bumps, I mean heavy bumps when I meet both of them..Do I regret..Naaaa..He, I mean Uday is one of the best one to be with you..He is now actually gone "THIN"..to compliment the couple's look. He also gladly admit that..
The "WHAT AN IDEA SIRJEE" worked for him..daily walk for 5 hours...I mean walk while you talk has probably done the trick. This is actually one of the best ways to get in shape..I mean having some one close to you. Let me list down the advantages for having "HER " in anyone's life..This is actually in general ..So no offences to anyone..And you can continue to Like Uday..

You do not get bored easily.
You do not have to remember time..As you will always be late in her words or "BY HER WATCH".
You end up forgetting your birthday to remember her's..
Your pocket will always be empty..
Your bike will always be on RESERVE..
You salary will be like..So LESS. due to monthly installments..or investment in your (I mean her) future..
and only God knows what are the returns ;-)..
You will suddenly develop patience.
You will be more confused than ever..
You will be a bad driver.
You will be over enthusiastic.
You will forget directions.
You will over shoot your expenses.
You will fight with your friends.. Mood thek nhi hai..baad mein baat karte hain..
You will end up the YOGA MASTER for laughing therapy.
You will forget to take your phone to office...or wearing socks with shoes.
You will end up putting your clothes in the fridge.
Your phone will always be on charging.
You will end up having less food and thus saving bucks for recharge.
You will try to try to not to fight..but it ends up in a heated argument.
You will kill your ego for her..and not for your boss.
You will be always free on Saturday and Sunday for her.
You will always be ready in 2 minutes..but end up being late by 2 hours..reason off course is traffic..We know.

You can catch the love bird's in the metro.in a cab..in a office table desk..in lunch sharing that favorite dish...calling each other with their nick names or special "SECRET" names..Feels nice to be under water in it desperately trying to connect the phone after a weak connection..As if the two words are a world for you..You want to be associated with the one like a wireless connection..with her always..All those who have found their love are lucky one's..Some one up there is watching you.guiding you in every sense. Only request from my end..Please do not fight with each other any time..rather than you can fight with me and keep only "LOVE" for each other.. God bless you both (UDAY and G********I)....

Me and " Unknown"...

For my love one..A small poem.
I saw the pain in your eyes,when you were looking towards your friend.
As she bend forward to wear the ring from her husband.
I know you always wanted to be in her place for the moment,
A mute man is standing up there waiting for you with the ornament..

Show me a sign and I promise I will come to pick you up,
Please do not worry, I hope this time I am having all my luck..
I promise to never ever let you go,
Please give me a chance to say "I LOVE YOU" more than you  actually thought you were...

Thank you..for my ATONEMENT

The above thank you is for my parents, my sister and my family..
Yesterday's sorry was to a Gol Guppa wala..On Ring road ..Just thought of having them...Oh boy..the quantity.."ANKIT" that gol guppa wala said "AAP TOH TANKAR HO"..He was actually surprised to see me having 23 Gol Guppas..ie "ATTA and SUJI" wale combined..Firstly he asked..What type you want..I said to him..Bus "AAN DEE".."JEHDI MARJI DAYEE JA"...Then I think he must have been tired serving..and when did i stopped ??...Just saw Bhale papri in his other container..

Start of the "GOL Guppa" serving..

The Man was from Badaun. Those of who do not know..its after moradabad..ie on highway to "JIM CORBET PARK"..ie near to Bareilly. He came here to make a modest living, and trying his level best to help the family back home.  That 23rd GOP Guppa brought a smile to his face.I wonder what was there in rest of them ?

Laughing on my 23rd Gol Guppa..The man "ankit" was his name..Said.."AAP ne bhi GOL Guppa" ban jana hai kisi din..
He was from BDAUN..Near Moradabad..Oh ho..you do not know moradabad..its near Bareilly..

Any way my poem for her..

Its like a daily wish for me, how come not a kiss for me ??
The happiness in and around me is only because of you my miss.
Walking down the stairs , reminds me of your flip flops,
When I close my eyes , I see you in your lovely top...

Going on and on for you, in you, with you..
Seems like its an end for all my blues..
I still hope to see you on that corner, waiting for me,
Apologies, but the traffic was too much and I was negotiating my way in between..

My wish is for patience and persistence is unanswered,
Happy for you, and I hope God grants it and him to you..
And I know you deserve a better person in every sense,
Question is will you settle for this joyous youth ??

The "GOOD NIGHT"....

"Don't say goodbye say goodnight so it's not over" - "by Binocular" 


I see you every time in my face, my smile, my tears every where..And you are the reason..the only reason for me. Its like I can't stop thinking ..I can't stop thinking of you...It simply brings smile on my face..I do not know the reason why...

I always wished to hear that "good night" from you ,
Do not make it right but please take it out of your sight , 
As I do not want you to leave me like this , 
A night alone to me is like a years of a yawn without any eternal bliss..

I want to wake up next to you every morning ,
See your eyes with a hope of a life time,
Trust me I am doing my best to make it come true,
I know its taking time , and Its the patience I am developing to be with you..

Its like the best thing that every would or could happen to me ,
Simply saying , I am equally not enjoying this season of being lonely.
Hoping for it to come true in the future,
And I have faith that some day could be today...

कुछ नहीं होगा मगर कुछ तोह होगा , एक उम्मीद आज भी इस दिल में रहती है।

अपने व्वादे पे क्यूँ मुकरे हम , आज भी इतने दिनों के बाद इस बात का ग़म है मुझे
प्यार ही है मुझे और फिर क्यूँ अपने दम पे मुझे ग़म है
जिंदगी में जोह मिला उसको अपना बना लियेया
क्या दिन क्या रात,  और एक गुलशन अपने लियेया सजा लिया

 क्या पता था के  ख़ुशी सिर्फ दो पल की मेहमान है
एक हम ही थे जिसे पता था के बस अब उस एक पल में हे अब जान है।
दिन रात सिर्फ उसी के लियेया जी रहे थे, कभी लफ्ज़ कभी शब्द उसके के लियेया पी रहे थे
अब जाने क्या पता कहाँ पे यह ले जाएगी जिंदगी

एक उम्मीद हे है जिसके सहारे जीयेया जाएगी यह जिंदगी।
शायद कुछ कमी मुझ से हे रह गए होगी
जो के उसको नहीं प् सका यह दिल।
समां भी था , शब्द  भी थे और एक आस थी "तू कभी तोह मिल ".....

Today's song.

"Mera kuch saamaan" - "Ijaazat - 1987"

"Can't  get you off my mind this time" - "August Rush 2007 "

I try to find you in every little word I can,
Be it a metro or a word out side a can (Bottle can),
Trying to find your face in the crowd,
Some thing reminds me of you and I am proud.

Proud for what ?
To have loved you like I would have thought,
I pray to God to grant the wish my "THY has",
She is the one to make me realize what is the meaning "CRY" has.

I am not too weak or too strong,
Simply not having the strength to understand why its me ???
For the reason I do not know , these were not the seed that were sown,
I do not want to own, but to sink in them before I drown..