To Ankur..Uday and Garimaaaaaaa :-)

I some what believed and tried hard to the extend of stealing a number from a friend's cellphone..
But after doing the same repetitive attempts..I am happy as I zoom..
To one of the most memorable phase of having a true female friend..
Who has unknowingly some how given a guiding hand on every bend..

Wishes usually do not come true like this..
Crazy it may seem..but I was left awestruck when I heard she drives a SUV instead..
I mean..who else would not have a fascination of having a girl friend who picks you up for a lunch...
Then comes the slap..to wake up..I bet ...that is how Miss Garima has shown me her new clutch..

Do I actually mind the leg pulling or else..she being some time..brutally true to the core..
Naahh..she is one of the person..who actually never lets any one better of herself..and he is kept waiting for more..
Some how..there's a question that comes in my mind..what If..ankur.uday and she would not have been there..
Can't imagine the world without them..as not mentioning their words would not have been fair..

Sorry I forgot the poem is for her..and trust me..I am not being paid..but actually made to work like a maid..
Seriously who ORDER's and sends a reminder to a friend to do more...and is asked to wait..
Sharing the song's have some what become a daily routine..
Not sure..when I will get a holiday...as I hope its enough of this scene..

Jokes apart..she is a fresh air..in anyone's lives..
Deserves much more than what she expects...trust me..she is the the one having all the positive vibes..
There is nothing much you can describe in words ahead..
As people like her..are difficult to find ..it is true to act like a protective shed.. 

Mixed Emotions...of a Silly Blogger Boy :-)

As I rewind my mind for the amazing spectacular events..
I find...there have actually been many....and not just hoping for "My ONE" instead..
Almost all of them showed and shared the love..
Some how..it disappeared ...from me..like a dove..

You see a pregnant lady..holding a child in her...
It was a moment to recon the look with the wet eyes she wore..
There could not be a much better way to thank the creation of god..
Let us show some respect....as she is the only reason for all.

Suddenly you feel..you want to father a child and hold it in your arms..
That's the feeling I have been missing lately..I know its altogether up to fast..
Might not have been able to myself with you...
And Still some thing is left in me...which is much more than I say "I do"..

And it again takes a round back from where it started..
Just a silly question from a blogger boy..why you actually departed..
Was it that I could not make you understand the love I had..
Every time..it comes as a tear from the eye....that what if...I was not like that...

Some where lost in between..

Its all of me..that I am like this..but I hope I never wanted this..
Seeing at my phone...expecting a reply..which I know will never come..
Strange time is the reality after it has ended....and you are trying to forget..
Suddenly here comes a message...when I say..it was not you..but some one instead..

For all the mails and chats exchanged..Yes I do admit..
I was glued to them....before I took a hit..
Don't why I still keep on checking the notification..
And hoping some how..you might want to message back to me..in a guilt of realization..

Some where I am lost in between you and me..
Can't figure out..what happened ..as it was supposed to end as WE..
That silly two letter word..has not got a special respect..
I am actually trying hard to convince my self..its better never to expect..

But atlast after all we are all humans..We do have desires..
Which are usually and normally not lit and hidden beneath the pier....
No I  know I am accountable for my present state..but it does not mean an end to my burning desires.
Its just a look of you ..that could again ignite as a love of fire....

I will come again

I will come again for you on that bus stop..Asking you for a hot cup..
But this time I will not ask for your permission to knock..
Hope that I might get lucky with my lady this time..
Mad is what you can call me..but its hard to define the beauty without a wine...

I will come again to wish you uninvited..
Deep inside my heart knows that we actually never parted..
With each day passing by..makes me sure I could only be happy with you..
Missing you has become my favorite dream of lately....and I some how can't speak the truth..

I will come again for you on that valentine..
Sweeping you off your feet with a kiss that could define love for my sun shine..
Off lately the feeling has grossed in me...I can't and will not be able to move without you..
And every day..I lie to myself..every thing will be all right...and wait patiently for my time to end the blues..

I will come for you again in your dreams...and wish they could be mine..
To stop your tears..and make your fear disappear....call it to be boneless spine..
Its the respect for you and the emotions that have always held me back..
Call me to be..coward...I guess it was never my time..other wise could not have let you go just like that....

If you could hear..what I never said..

If only you could hear..what I never said..
To be true words were not able to express ...but if only your heart could guess..
The state at which I actually was..
Moving on was an option....but I waited in it..to make sure what if you look back..

Broken down...off the track...can't do anything..except for clinging to my God..
Yes I do watch my cell phone many a times..hoping it shows a message..
You can guess the situation in which I have been living..as if nothing happened bad..
Writing style might have changed..and so are the words...one thing is same..I still pray for you what so ever is the world..

The open heart has a different meaning of asking questions..why I am here on my blog ??
 Obvious answer I have.."I see you in here with me..infront of the whole world"..but why choke ??
That is the word which some time sends shiver across my spine..I wish the emotions froze..
Of the happiness and excitement......but then again it breaks down with a bad dose..

I am the culprit responsible for my fate...and ask..why its not you with me my reader ??
Not sure if you have an answer..the best I could get..asking for a time to disappear..
From my life..and my fate..which were some how for a short time associated with you..
I hope and pray with my folded hands and admit.."I have and will always say I DO love you"....

My God Bless you...with all happiness and love :)

I write this in respect of the one I loved the most.
Kept myself at bay waiting for her..holding it to a so called hope.
Irrespective of the result and the reality I have to face today.
There will always be the words of almighty for you..as its the only words I pray..

How could I be angry and not happy with the dream she always wanted as a reality..
I guess..to love some one indefinitely means...no matter what happens you stick with her..what ever she wants to be..
My hands shook and the beat some what missed a second..
I cried myself in, even then the words were for your dream towards so called realization..

It made me strong to be with you..
As every morning..I wake up with you..as if our love has just begun as a fresh sun..
And I realize..I have been too selfish at times...praying for togetherness of me and you..
But my GOD had some different plans..and he always wanted the best to come as your virtue..

I know the reality its not me..and nor it could ever be..
Living in a dream world of me..sleeping with you is feeling..yet I seem to be so much lonely..
Call it to be respect and love for you...never forced myself as you might feel..
Simply waited patiently hoping for a miracle..you might see me as the last man when there is no one left to be

I can't Stop thinking..of you :)

Its the walk that I miss of you..
Not the work out..but it was the time..I was with you...
For the hour I guess..
It laid back all my sadness to rest..

Its the laugh that I miss with you...
Asking me to speak..and me watching you practicing how to breathe..
Funny was the situation..
But atleast gave me the promotion of being closer to have an association..

Its the smiley I miss of you...
The way it was spelt and written..make me forget as If I was some what not in heaven..
Call it to be on demand...
But how come two simple words..make me felt..the love and your warmth..

Its the good times I miss with you..
Hope I never have to go back again..as it pains me more..please do not call me insane..
I only wanted to see you laugh and be happy..no matter if I was with you or not..
Guess..I loved you more than anything..and I cant stop thinking and describing about you..as it was never enough ...as you meant me next to my god..... 

It all starts with a SMILE of you :) my "ONE" :)

I am happy alone seeing you close to me..
Some time as a wallpaper but mostly its the truth I see..
What if we could actually work out....
Could have given me a reason and actually not a treason to quitely pullout.

Of the belief that I was not worth giving a shot..
Standing unchained...waiting for love to hold me with your cloth..
Tired to remember you again and  again..
Just making myself sure..I do not miss praying for you..trust me..it never rained..

Its simply the way..I dropped down..and trying to configure..
What was left in me..with a false hope...you might appear..
Clearing and putting my obnoxious mind to rest..
And love me more than me..that's all that I know you will do when you are at your best..

I can't rethink again...as it some what..pains me..inside to put you in that frame..
Of the dream I saw you with you...changing the terms from I to we as it hung on that window pane..
Actual picture now seems blurred to me..as my eyes are wet praying for my one..
Time and again its my belief and hope...that has answered to me saying "Don't worry..she is some one waiting waiting up there..hiding herself..only for the right time to come"....:)