Still the SAME..for my "ONE"..

Am I still the same..is the question I and we all usually ask ?
Movies..locations..celebrations are still in tact ..as we may pass..
So how come at the back of my mind it has a focus on you ?
Super human..no..its just me..asking you to come over to my moon..

It Isn't too soon...What else you want to think and configure..
If you wait more..I think my book of poems on you will be ready for the fair..
I do not write about what we have and could have had..
Just a perception..In my world..everything is set for you.,and need not move a tad..

Some people like me do not understand the world "MOVE ONE"..
Laugh at me..but the brain is not configured to accept its said and done..
I do not want to bug you at times of peace..reason is I am already having you..
Some time as a piece in my moments of happiness..that's all I ever asked you in times of need..

In here..

Am I a too old to write about it..
Or is it just a perception , I might lie a bit..
Its not about the age..but can call it to be an imperfection..
Is it actually too hard to understand..it not me..but only just a fraction..

Time and again..I have nothing to say but to explain..
Give me a break..just forget everything and let it out from your brain..
What you have been actually thinking of me..
Just tell me..how does it make you feel ?

I am not calling you to be green and asking you to beam..
Just asking you to reconsider..begging you is no way near in my jeans..
Love cannot be grown and frown like an expression..
Definitely it need some one like you to make me feel near perfection..

Actually can't stop laughing at me..why still I love you..
It kills me to say it again..its the word that has been repeated a zillion times probably since June..
Who am I trying to explain...You actually know you are in love ..so why this pain....
Accept the truth ...sing a duet ..and lets get together again..

Decision Maker..and Decision Making..

Its so hard to understand when you are judge by some one,
Being silent does not mean that you accept everything in his name..
Have been called insane and have myself to be blamed..
What if all that was said about me..was actually lame..

I never asked you to stop..for me..
Apologies for that..but that was not I actually meant to be..
Wish you could feel what's inside me..
Could not deny..what was actually meant for my "SHE"..

Confusion's and frustration level's are back..
Asking me to come out and shout ..saying I am not at all bad.
Its simply very hard for me to understand...and I only meant to be with you..
Not selfish...but I still love you..and that is actually the truth..

Perceptions...or a Mirror Image of Difference..

Some one said to me when I was young..
You will get what you want..But remember it will never be as done..
The hunger to have more and more grows within..
Guess what...I thought happiness could be bought from the store and so is the win..

What I am saying is a bit confusing and different..
Having my lunch alone..yes that makes me consistent..
Perhaps some thing is in my hands..
What actually I am trying to have...is one hell of a hard thing to understand..

Stupid questions and an obnoxious mind..
Crap is actually what I am writing..just can't take you out from my lines..
I know.. it actually does not mean anything related to you..
Not able to understand..what stops me for correlating to you as my moon..

Drained Completely !!..

I tried hard with all my luck..to make it as difficult as I could..
Knowingly I made it complex..Picking up the lines while narrating about your dress..
Not much is actually left to explain ..all I am having now is an empty lot of the words..
And no way I could find the lines to impress my distressed bird..

Might not be apt or lucky with the reason to explain.
Seriously have the reality in front of loosing the "ONE"..and that worsens the pain..
No matter how much time I write ..It always end up as my last plight..
Makes me feel sad..how I transformed from that end to being bad..

The situation has actually dried out the part in me.
I some time laugh at myself..Is it all because of my destiny ??..
And else who would have thought..me still stuck on at you..
Trust is not just a mere word..but I am expecting to cement "you and me" in this so called world..
  

Paint Me..

From the sound of the rain falling and touching the ground..
To the fragrance of the wet that makes the heart go round..
Tasting the tears and that some times feels salty..
At least .I am happy that they washed out my faulty drain...

The emotions with which you want to paint me are a bit different..
Seeing the watch after every second..counting when its gona be that minute..
Spending the evening on the bed...with mom asking you how you would like to be fed..
Walking the path alone..wondering if the distance ends on that bend..

Hoping for too much and too soon could be one of the self styled reason to get hurt.
Controlling yourself some how in his name with every thing starting with a "BUT".
Closer to reality it seems..with the words some time making me to scream..
If you can listen to the echo....Its asking you to "PLEASE don't go"..