The Week ends...are really WEAK ends...

What a bore... I mean what a bore..2 simultaneous weekends gone without an outing. Really, its me missing you badly..The moment I see my cell without any updates of yours make me feel sick. So much used to asking questions , its like a day spent without any progressions..What do I do then??...Ask them to me..Ya its silly..but what to do to keep myself busy..Can call it to be butterflies running down the stomach..Okay..I admit..Seriously speaking I did not saw it coming ..Ie the end result of all this..No good movies released in the week end, no friends available for the outing..Left with the worst option of "FACEBOOK"..Dude get a life..Its like you have to take a "PLEDGE" to quit it..Some time the addition goes to much and reaches a level that we start updating out "TIME Table" on it..The encouragement part comes in when we receive a comment or "LIKE" button is pasted on it..That simply multiplies the satisfaction level..And the "NIRVANA" has been attained..

The movie actually depicts the theme behind all this social networking stuff, and Its all about the little show off.  I admit "I am also not different " from any one else being associated with it..It ultimately depends on the individual, you simply cannot compare or force your opinion on some one. Seriously there is actually better work in this world to do so, than judging and having a discriminatory behavior towards some one. Be busy living..We always have the easy way of saying the truth, in our own version..The so called "Justification of our OWN truth"..Our way..glorifying the actions and decisions..Might be the easy way to move on perhaps...Any way coming back to the topic. The fun days are nothing better without your family or friends. With most of the times your mom crying to help her clean the home..and after 10 minutes of fight or so..She ultimately settles for the wish "At least clean your room"..Adjust your wardrobe..The dad off course are much more chilled out..Busy with themselves..and the saying "One day or other you gona understand why we speak so"..Not that he has given up on you..but more importantly he wants the time to teach you all this..Your grandparents want you to read "GURBANI" and go to gurudwara every day..One more strange wish they have is that, they actually want you to be present there with them..Any "REASON" to refrain them or to explain them actually goes in vain..Then comes your siblings ..Movie Le ja ?...Kahin le ja ??
Gumane hee le ja ??  ...Shopping karva de ??............................................................................................
Your only wish some time is to hang the weekends..But with time it makes you realize your own worlds is not your own..Its actually a percentage collection of the near and dear, besides you. They also have some expectations and you have some responsibilities.Being closer to them makes you realize some time down the track , you have to sing and listen to the song your companion..Even though its not the language or the wording you every wanted to listen to.

So the week ends now leave me with much thinking of "what to do" ??..
I cannot go on singing a song like Winnie the pooh,
Or to listen to a song that always remind me to say "I DO"..
Common..I need a better reason to continue..

Seriously these week ends have become a lot difficult,
No I do not mean I cannot pronounce "YOGURT".
But they kinda taste like "YUK"..most of the time,
Its true Ankur and Uday are not in town to actually help me design..

To design the location and the plan to hang out,
I am done with every thing , besides asking you about,
Common you have only the sunday to spend with me,
The "chemical reaction" can take a "time out" from your destiny..

An option..A Choice and THE DECISION....

We all live our lives with our own will and are all proud on the decisions made in the past..But some time down the line we forget that it was actually "An option" or "A choice" we were never sure, but still went ahead with it. Only to realize that the option or a choice was actually a good decision. The assumptions or presumptions change in due course of time. And a pat on the back is well deserved for "RISK" taking ability. Which ultimately paid off, as we never had to regret the "choice" we made. In short it depends on the "GUT" feeling you have to venture out to the unknown..More importantly the faith , that you can pull this off..no matter what is the situation.Call it over confidence..But to me its "Faith".

The brain is always in dilemma for some thing or the other. Some time it reflects on you face, and some time not. Expressing your concern its better, and if you do..Then please also be open for the opinion you are gona  receive regarding it. Accept them with a big heart, but you have all the liberty to make your own decision. Accepting is better than regretting. The options, choice and the decision are and is always with us. From the day we are born, we choose our own way and our own path.

Nascent form of Choice.(As a new born)
We decide our Sleep and wake time.
We decide when to eat.
We decide when to cry and when to laugh.
We decide when to walk, when to crawl.
We decide when to start speaking and when not.
We decide when to go for a walk.
We decide to say those golden words (Mama and papa)

The decision making ability power changes as out heart overtakes our brain for the illusion happening in this world. The Sleep and wake is replaced by the cycle we want to have. If its being endorsed by a child artist or a TV personality or my neighborhood guy has this..then its a big yes..The advertisers have also realized this fact of "CHILD POWER"..As the complexity of the world has increased the reduction in the parents time has been compensated by the number of wishes answered of your child. For the basic acceptance to keep him/her happy.The seed that you have sown in this mind will soon be a tree some time later.

"People are to be loved and things are to be used , and not vice verse"

It happens unknowingly to every one of us. And after some years we realize to have traded our time for the "GIFTS"..The less the time..more expensive they are gona become. One of the best reason behind all those "Gurgaon's" and "Vasnt Kunj's" and those "Late night"..is of this only. This small start is a talking point in the later stage of the life of the person.  Being stubborn, using "N" number of ways to make your wish and requirements come true, are actually the after effects. Can you complain for the actions that you have made..The answer is simple no..Try to engage yourself to find your inner self..Call it introspect of self belief, like it or not..Trust me, it will definitely help you to part off with the worries , that you have or you have ever faced. Just a 5 minute complete analysis of the whole day will be able to bring in the results.

I wonder how the things change with time,
One moment it was me and now its you , that I am holding in between my lines.
Looked as if the whole story just passed before me in a flash.
Yes, its true I never anticipated..Why was I never in a position to en cash.

From the day we are born, its the happiness we bring in to our family,
Where it is now ??..And no, I am not asking this to make a mockery.
Priorities change with time, only a wish "please see their (Parents) eyes who are not filled with lime,"
The wish to see you still throngs in their heart, as if a new one has just begun from the word start.

Every thing and yet nothing changes in this world,
Its up to the individual to see, that the language in any case is no absurd,
They have actually given their heart out to make you dreams come true,
Lets come together mutually, and say to them you are the one,
The reason , the force and its definitely better than every one...

Stalking or "TRUE LOVE"...and a THIN line in between (From Beholder's point of view)...

One of the topic of debate that the blogger and the reader,  or any one close to me about my blog including me is..
My obsession or schedule of writing some thing, and can it be remotely taken into consideration as "STALKING" or a case of "MENTAL harassment". Seemingly unknown, but I do not blame any one who has been a reader to any of the post at any point of time. Yes its true it relates to the fictional aspect, inspired by the true incidents from my so called life till date. And at this point of time, to club it or take it as an addiction is completely wrong. More appropriately, it can be called to be a "PASSION of LOVE"..for my "SHE or THE ONE" to be more realistic. Its not a "DAILY POST" or a "DIARY ENTRY" to remind the "ONE" that I miss her..or to any of my friends or colleagues that I am still deep in it. Really its much more "SACRED" to me than all of this, as I have always loved the one from my heart. Irrespective of the fact or result of the other side, and I have no qualm to admit "I DO"..Some time it ie my blog or post can be or is a laughing point of discussion of so called "LOVE" related posts. I am not saying its a too famous of a link or a post to read..but its to those who read it.Ever wondered the reason behind starting the blog and venting your heart out only to breathe properly. Only concern was
 "Can the people around this world be able to understand an correlate what I want to say ??..And simply do not consider the "Blogger" to be a freak from some another planet obsessed with "MOVIES" and trying to replicate for a SHOW OFF..

I or we (Blog and me) do not consider any one in particular to make an opinion about us only by mere reading of the blog. As deep inside its much more than what my blog seems to depict ,say or explain. Off course you cannot judge the book by its cover.So spend some time with me and with it. Try to understand the reason behind..and I will help you to draft a opinion about me and my blog. Apart from the fact its "monotonous"..its much more and beyond the mind can foresee.Each and every line carries a true picture of my heart.Who has always loved the "ONE" more than anything else...not as a stalker but as a passion..and not an obsession..Need not be afraid of my actions or what I say. Have all the "CONTROL MECHANISM " in place for the fail safe mode.

This post does not contain any meaning or a relevant information. Its only written to "RESPECT" the decision made from the other end, irrespective of the explanation. Stalking and obsession cannot be mixed in for "PASSION"..And its sacred for me..ie to be with my loved one. Even though its one sided..I am comfortable with it..Not like I am not having the courage to accept the truth and move one..Still clueless about it..and trying for it to seep in. Most of the time, I am explaining it to god to keep her in me..Deep within.

My passion is some time taken into consideration as my obsession of being a stalker,
Time and again , I need not explain "I am in love with you"...Irrespective of the fact I am shorter..
Need not be the best man to be with you,
But the best to keep you away from all those blue..

Why I am still writing about you,
Not to remind you or to tell you or to force you to reconsider your decision.
Only to clarify "MY LOVE" is independent of any of the above condition.
Happy in my present state of mind in my own small world,
Call it insane, Only request " please do not complain",
And let me be happy with my "Assumptions" and not the pain.

Do I repeat the topic and elongate as chewing gum,
Not actually true, but its the way to vent out my GUM.  (     गम     ).
Can I be solid or assume my self to be a rock to disguise,
I admit, I have nothing else to say and only wish to be on your side.. 

Reaction to Counter "ACTION"....and the TRAIN is leaving...

One of the most common mistakes as individuals we commit is to explain or to justify our action for the reaction. You should actually know that we appreciate what you did..As apart from you, we our anyone else is not or was not in a position to decide "What actually you should do ?".We are actually proud of you to have handled the things completely on your own, and straight from your heart. As down the line in later years you should not say like.

अगर     यूँ     होता    तोह    क्या    होता ..
अगर    यूँ    न    होता    तोह    क्या    होता।

The story narrated by one of the best speaker I have ever met was by Mr Asit Gosh. The more you discuss, more complex things become with number of opinions increasing. If you go by it, you end up satisfying others and not yourself. And time and again you will regret the decision or actions made. As none of them reflected your true spirit. Its like only "ONE" chance you have, and make it count in every aspect..Its like jaise "koi train ja rahe hain"..and it will not come back. Simply say what you need to say. Irrespective of the fact or the result will be..Its like "one last wish you have and the world is going to end, if you will not speak your heart out".Not at all filmy type..but its the truth. Imagine how the world would have been if a "YES" came from that lips..Perhaps and definitely heaven on this earth.Behind all those Good mornings and Good nights..its a heart saying to the other heart.."LOVE ME" more than any things else in this world.In mathematical term, an exponential increase with each day progressing..

Oh boy..and then ask me for how is your life ??
I will say.who cares..ask her ?? Do I actually get enough of her to see what else is going around..What is the price of the diesel or the inflation.Dude remember "Its now or never".I will try and be more happy to fail, rather than being called a "QUITTER".As they say ."Meri sui add gaye hain"..Same is mentioned in punjabi.

ਏਹਦੀ  ਤਾਂ   ਸੁਈ   ਅੱਡ   ਗਯੀ   ਹੈ 

"Some people do not know how close they were to success, when they actually quit".
I think and hope same is applicable to the "LOVE" also. As the above theorem stands true for all the inventions..And the "LOVE" is also an invention in our lives.I think !!..and I am not wrong.Yes its true the behavior some time comes as a shocking to me and to every one else. But the reactions are true and pure and not programmed..

To keep you on your toes.
To keep you guessing what next is coming.
To keep you happy for ever and ever..
To keep holding your hand...as if its permanently welded or soldered..
To keep you with me for "n" years to come..
To keep you like you always..
To keep loving you.
To keep bugging you.
To keep praying for you..
To make you feel each day as new.
To make you feel that one special person ..who is the world for me.
To love you without a reason.
To love you in every season.
To love you with every sun rise.
To love you every second, every minute..for the rest of my life.
That's how I love you..

"JULY" to "SEPTEMBER" ..Comes as a Blessing to you...for LOVE..

Welcome to the season of heat breaks. Every time it happens , I see the month  and sadly to my surprise its August or September..One of the worst one's in the calender.I am technically trying to come out with a theorem to prove they are actually bad for love. And we should refrain from having a fight in them.Similar to like what we follow that some day is auspicious and some day belongs to some other goddess. Its true.So whats the reason behind this ?? To my understanding its related to the job rotation policy similar to what we have in financial year..Ie after April the targets gets eased out due to start of a new fiscal year..Same is not applicable to me..as for me its from Jan to Dec...Even though the default analysis is applicable...ie as July falls in the second quarter, the pressure is still eased out as you are having 3 quarters to perform..And the poor performance of the first one can be blamed on the government due to delay in the presentation of next years policy and clarity..

This means july leaves us..mean you and me with ample time to plan the moves and make our situation stronger..Ie in case you want to start any thing or to shift the job .its the ideal month..The HR partner is trying to close the new hiring targets, and you are preparing to get hired..Same is the case with love..You tend to plan the same to happen or about to happen in July...so that till FEB your position in the game of "LOVE" is cemented..And you are ready to score and win the "TROPHY"..and the rose day...and many more days come in handy to close the deal.. Then as soon the next month comes in..the "SUBODH" factor comes into play..Trust me..you send a message to her..telling her to remember every situation you have been through..Just as a "TRUTH MAIL" to take you much more seriously..Then if its ok..and she starts taking you seriously..it BACKFIRES...you are not giving me any space..and why interfering in my life. You are always telling me not to do like this..or that..I am fed up with you..and VICE VERSE ALSO..Then you make the "SORRY CALL".


YOU - "BABY this was the day when we met, exactly 1 month back"..and I said "I LIKE YOU" to you..frankly speaking I always liked you ..the moment I saw you was like..
BABY - Really I like you too..lets go and hang out some where..
YOU - Sure..checking out the pocket and replying with a heavy heart.."Its the month in which all the sales start off with..I am gona buy those shoes and those T shirts of LACOSTE"...."And my new cell phone as the old one really sucks".
BABY - "Are u there"..or u left..
YOU - No..no..I am here..just was on another call..What a situation...

I can actually imagine the situation..You buying her a "UCB" clothes and waiting for the sale to continue in September..All the love god's will be happy to see your situation...ie he has granted you your wish.and rather than being happy..you end up "MAKING HER HAPPY"..It depends the Girl's point of view is "UNTOUCHED"..I am sorry for that..But you are free to "BLAST ME" and my "POST" in every manner you can..I will be DEEPLY happy by that. Really bad months for love..I think Love should be banned in these months..It makes quite an awkward situation..Broken heart combined with "SWELLED TARGET"..and you end up calling your boss...I want a leave..have a personal problem..And he also knows the GUY is actually struggling to "JUGGLE" between the BETTER HALF..and not TWO halves..If the situation does not work..You and the other party (her) have all the right buy NEW GIFTS and say sorry to  each other.. This means

LOVE = Directly proportional to the NOS of GIFTS x Value of Gift.
Number of kiss = Nos of time  "I love you said" x tear in eyes ( Exception of reaching to infinity)

* Conditions.

• Love is same in case of boy or girl.
• Value of gift is in "Rs"..but will be more suitable if gift is bought in "Dollar's.
• Nos of gift means, gifting her a balloon ( one a day) like Subodh ( Of DIL CHAHTA hai )..
• Gifting a balloon does not mean you will end up with SONALI KULKARNI..
• Nos of kiss means more love for the one.

Any way on a lighter note..I love you as "COUPLES"...

• Happy to see you on the bench..making every possible move in the dark..
• I also love you on the bike..holding the other one so tight, and he might not complain ...but could easily die of choking..
• I love you when you wait at the metro station to catch and wait for the same metro..
• I love you when you are sitting on the stairs with your head on her lap (Or vice verse)..
• I love you when you have ice cream on India Gate..
• I love you when you wait for 3 hours late and being angry , end up happy and relieved just to see her / his face..
• I love you when you catch the last the last flight or bus or train..for the promise you made..that I will come...
• I love you for the tiffin you share.
• I love you when you run in the rain with your hands locked.
• I love you when you drop him / her to her stop / home.
• I love you when you call him or her just to remind him / her..Please miss me as I am missing you

Perhaps that is the reason Love has eluded me..But I am actually happy for all of you..This post comes as a dedication to Ankur and Uday who asked me to write some thing different..Only thing that is different from the rest of the posts is "I am MISSING you"...

Too lazy on the part of "OPPORTUNITY" to knock at the DOORSTEP..

Just keep the front door shut,
Please do not allow any one to come inside the hut,
That's the best way to keep wishes at bay,
And you do not allow any one to come in who do not have a say..

Its no the ignorance that you have,
Just to keep yourself simple, for the thing you never really every had.
Does that make you go ballistic with the idea,
And the question you always ask "PYAR KYUN KIYA" ?

Still you look for the moment to arrive that have always eluded you,
Doing the same things over and over again, only to get closer to you.
Hoping for the moment to arrive soon, even though you have given up with time,
Crawling like a child, only to see your last Signs ..... 

I LIE to myself to "LIE" with you..

Word will not be able to do justice..

I lie to myself to lie with you,
Don't fell shy , and I could go wild for you,
Sorry, but its hard to admit I was not beside when you needed me more than you,
And this time I will not go down without a fight for you..

Its the happiness for me, to see you for a while and its true,
I can go on forever and ever, to worship you as if you are new..
Makes me feel cry, when I am unable to find me in you,
Guess..I cannot force you to love me for a while with you..

Preserving you in every drop of tear that fall of the eye..

I still feel your fragrance as a child coming out as a new,
Hold me for a while in a disguise, till I am off to sleep in the dew.
Only trying to tell you every time with  my clock asking me for how long  should I stay ??
The lips go dry and bleed, asking it to stay it forever this way....

Certainly the Walk to Remember...

I still can vouch for you....only thing holding me is you..

Hearing your favorite song in the rain..A nice quite walk.Soaked in sweat..Makes up the day. Lonely no..actually used to it. Could be better if I am asked about how the sensor works or how to we actually synchronize the timing of the FIP with and engine..Its basically I have grown with.Passion for engines and for automobiles.And off lately my so called life had a phase about me discovering myself. That's when I ran into my present state of blogging. The link shared with every one , desperately trying for the reader to post their comments on it. Not to my surprise.that did not happen.So what do the great blog's have in them..Language ..content..intent..or you actually need to refer the dictionary to find the meaning for the words...Guess none.

So what does it need to have to be the "ONE"..percentage of display to seek and attention..

Any way coming to my walk..Usually it beings before the sunrise or after the sun set..Reason. I don't know..I am happy being invisible. For the peace of my self and my mind set.It helps to focus on yourself, think about area for the scope of improvement to attain perfection. Down the lane I have realized the professional and the personal life cannot be run as same. The commitments , the time targets, the schedules tend to differ every time. Need to have a very ..I mean a very high level of patience to handle them both.To strike a balance..is like simply superb..Sooner or later you have gona learn that in order to survive for your better half. The division of the roles and responsibilities come into play this time ..Its like you are not even into a pact, and end up managing your life so perfectly.That you hardly need any papers for it to remember. Grown up in the middle class families, and desperately trying to follow the usual so called pattern of being a "GOOD ARDENT STUDENT".. The worst part, you cannot run or outrun..be a good person or a perfect person for every one..Answer every one's call or the plea to be better and great with every day progressing towards the closure of your own individuality. And end up living for other's and  a so called strange world.

Still a Hazy picture.

Every day I start of with  a strong will to forget you,

Wipe off my tears, and it end up with a question..Do I ever gona get you ?

In the remotest of corner's the picture is clear and fresh,

Its only the eyes that are yet to see you come out in your favorite dress.

I am not going away or walking back with time,

Its the present I am focusing on, not trying to be sublime.

Truth is I cannot get you out of me, not for a minute or for a second.

May be I want you to stay with me, when we pass on through that bend.

Don't worry its not gona be scary as it may sound,

I will be with you, never out of your bounds.

Monotonous It may sound ..some thing sort of a bored novel.

I  love you , for the reason that our name has 3 vowels and it sounds almost the same..