Used, refused, confused.....like a fuse....

Time and again..people come and spit on your face..
What do you do..go to them...showing them wiping it up with disgrace..
It happens all the time...when you let some so much into you..
Best is to get yourself compared being blind..

Of no reason to what soever you have made your life a hell..
Knowingly not awaking from the dream to realize the truth..guess you are still waiting for that bell..
Which will never come...stop yourself of being an object of fun..
I am not a saint here to forgive anyone...its time you realize still a lot is left in life to begun..

You fall with each date , each month..making you realize what you lost..
All the so called faith in him goes away in a fraction for a toss..
It makes me feel in human of not being able to move on so easily as you do..
Not blaming the intentions of a relation...but its me..who still expects much more than just a true love..

I know..I will not be able to get what I want..and is it to hard to expect what I want..
Cannot force someone to love me..but there is nobody who want's me more than me ??
Blame it on my mind who throws out an open question all the time...
And Is it to hard to say..I want you back...which I know is not possible likes my love for the rhyme...

Being Selfish even to disappear.....

Yes ..I am definitely one of the most selfish people around..
To be true I need you more every day.....and accomplish my mission of being found..
Off course by you....missing you is not a habit..
Its runs inside me...just using my blog time and again to vomit..

So called unexplained emotions let me loose of myself....its true it happens at times..
No hesitation to admit..I am still into you....and I am simply not trying to despise.
I do not want you to take mercy on me...and feel guilty of making me what I have begun..
As its the price I paid..for loving you more than anyone could have imagined and done..

Hard to explain how it feels every day....cribbing inside..hiding my tears...
Not to fall infront of everyone..But its true..I have felt your voice in my ears..
Trying to explain and move on...But what If it was so easily said and done..
Would have not sticked to you...despite the fact I am no way close to you to propose..

Yes..I do feel bad about me..being lonely..sitting in here infront of the system ..filling my world with words..
Of love..faith and hope.....thinking some how it might reach up there....As I miss you waiting on those roads..
Is actually living in the old times....expecting it to work..to see us together..
The truth is....I was not the best...only option left is to quietly disappear..

Just a Silly Stupid Blogger boy...

As I move ahead of time..so has my sub titles and name increased..
The adjectives have been changed..to my so called explanation of being subjective..
Its a simple wish of blogger boy to love you...more than anyone could have imagined..
Nevertheless...its the time to realize the reality that my wishes and hope have actually met a dead end..

If my tears could have meant anything to you..
At present you would have been sitting next to me..catching them before they fall..
You also know..this is how I could somehow..get me out from you...
I wish I could have told you..its not helping me..its the point I only want to make..thats all..

Life has never be the same..as it was..some time back..
It drops like a rain..giving me some relief...living with a lie hoping it might come on track..
Blame it on me..as its me only who keeps on looking at what happened...
But if moving on was so easy...I could have easily bucked off that trend..

I know..I will not be able to ask you for a reply..nor is I want to wish you good bye..
Its the respect and undying love I have for you...Somewhat keeping you alive..and don't feel shy..
Selfish is what you can correlate the latest of the words for living in a fantasy..
I will pray for you...hope you get the best one..with whom you actually want to be...

How could I never explain it to you..

Off late I have realized its the height that matters...forget about the sight..
Heavy beard ...a short stance..heavy built..to be true the reason's are plenty..
But all of them pointing towards a conclusion without a confusion..
Sorry is the world..which has actually replaced rejection due to fusion...

Some even call to ask the time..
Complaining and explaining the reason...of being manglik ....but all they want is the partner to be fine..
Its so sick to be out there alone..facing the wrath of time and people all the time..
God forbid..but how have we become....cursing the creation of him..and then..calling it to be divine..

It was with a simple wish and the hope I begun..
And now left with broken hands...kneeling on my knees..dragging myself....like a joke of others for fun..
But everything starts of like a sinusoidal wave...peaking up at time..but in the end..it my so called fate..
Which has always somehow..kept me away from you for some date..

To be true..I am tired of seeing so much of you..in every one..
The question every time I ask..why why why.....and why the hell..it never begun ??
Can't explain the frustration that I have in my head..
Makes me feel unwanted..as its better to have actually been dead..