And I still loveeeeee your smile :)

It does not matter what if I have torn the sheet..
Which had your name....and I saw it every day to believe..
Some how..some day it might work..
Keeping me awake from the night.....with hope..what if we were..

Obviously together forever..as our wishes always were..
Of you and me only..holding hands...getting old..and now it seems worse..
I cannot make my self to consider and believe...you are not near me..
The stupid blame game has started in the mind..cursing my destiny..

What if I could only remember the good times we had...
Perhaps it would be better than finding a reason..why it did not work out..despite the fact..it made us glad..
To be in each other's company felt like I was in some what another world of divinity..
Guess what it was not there to be..as the feeling now is seeping in facing the reality..

Of the world..of which I am actually not a part..
As the reason's may oblige ..but home come..I can trust again and convince my heart..
Obviously ..deep inside the feeling of love is still the same..
And it was only you.....with whom I felt..there could actually be no other..better to pursue..

Strange it is...

When ever you try to run away..there is always some one to catch you..
To make you feel alive, and its this feeling...of eagerness that has left me glued to you..
A sense of exhilaration...inside you..rushing in into yourself..
Expressing the emotions to the core .....from that shelf..

I guess..I will never understand the complexity of emotions..
To simple at times...but in the end its all about..explanations..
Wishing and hoping for a better world is difficult to understand..
As if you are picking some one just like your self from the DNA strand..

Why..?? perhaps is the question asked most of the time..
Its better to say..I do not want myself to be late..expressing myself through the lines..
That is were you come to my rescue..I mean my blog..
No one have actually understood me...to be true its all about clearing the air below the fog..

Some time..I have to ask my self to stop myself..to avoid getting hurt...
As it always have been the expectations that have made the condition worse..
May be..it not good to expect..but how could I have allowed this feeling to seep in..
And I have always loved you from my heart..Till there is last breath left in me.. I only wish and hope that some how it finally begin.. 

A new Meaning..

Don't know..what to write..
As almost and every time..I know..I recite..
My so called agony and pain..
To be true..its the perception that has all the more to be blamed..

Behind  the background...the music is a bit different...
Call it be..monotonous..but its inconsistent..
The so called lines and the rhymes some how....and lost the fragrance and the meaning..
Am I so much in secure..about my inside feeling..

And some how..I always tend to be cautious..not to exaggerate my emotions..
But I know..what I try..in the end..it happens to be only false notions..
Of the so called explanations..and the plea of consideration..
As if nothing happened between us..and it was...as if..only persuasions..

I have nothing more to day...than to perceive...
What I see of you..in me.. that always make me believe..
Some day..you will come back to see..
There is a man standing still..who only wishes you to be with me...