Some time you do believe the truth.....

Its tough to believe the reality you face.
With the mind having the hesitation to realize its Not a disgrace.
Perhaps its hard to say its been days..
Still fresh in my mind with the maze..

No good for any one..
Is the fact I have to digest..and it too easy to say than done..
Some thing must be faulty in my circuit..
And I am always trying to fix it..

The words have dried up as I speak..
Tried to shout at the top of my voice from that peak..
I hope at some point of time you listen to them. and believe..
Every thing is and was for you..and only Waiting for your reply to make it "Complete"..

My Mind

I am having those words in my head.
Perhaps the truth I always wanted to know..was out ..before we reach that bend..
Seriously I do not wanted this to be like THIS..
The book mark on my laptop do not seem to disappear..and I know I am nearing the end of this year..

Your name..your college..the last words some how on every day makes me realize what I have done.
I am sorry and apologies for the promise made..and simply it was not for fun..
Knowing and believing the truth is had to come by after what have happened.
Do not regret the fact..but only ashamed of myself...and I hope its not the end..

The feeling is like a mixed bag of emotions..I want to cry..only thing holding my self is your wish..
Not blaming myself..even though nothing has worked for us..and can accept the decision as his..
Hard to let the one go besides you, cant even say HI..as it will trouble her more..
But please tell me the way to be with you..and I see my self with any one else in this world..

A Promise made to the "One"..

No one knew how may times I cried.
Perhaps till date I have not at any single time lied..
For a wish to be with you,
As some thing is lost if I am not able to see you...still I say I do..

Word have a meaning with your name,
Before or After , does not mean they are in vain.
Never was it simple to be together..
I know , I am no good for you..to be there forever..

Trying to raise my level up,
To reach you, and say.."Lets forget the past" and start a fresh.
Promise you this time it will not end up in a mess..
Please give me a chance again, to prove myself again.
.and May god bless and take away all my pain..

Helpless is the word that has been recently attached.
Seeing you from the window, all I am hoping lets get together and get it patched..
I am waiting for the moment till you make up your mind.
As said earlier.."Its tough for me to see you in and from my behind"..

With my Heart out for the ONE

No way to describe or to explain.
I am feeling shy to say its simply insane..
To keep me waiting for the moment..
And I am trying to tell you again I am not your opponent.

Give me a chance to explain,
I do not need a training to be in this game..
Is there a reason that stops me from loving you,
None is I can find, only thing I see you every where in my truth..

The is no better way to be there..
Up in the sky and I watch you from up here..
It is not at all fair to keep me waiting..
As it is and it was always always you in the painting..

Really Bored..

Seriously bored and tried..
I think..its about time and I should have retired..
For the silly things I always do..
Really none of them have any meaning..except..I am writing to be with you..

The meaning..or the reason I do not have,
Nor it is the thing..I seek in your lab..
Of course its done for you..
Definition is hard to find all through..

Perhaps its a big long wait for which I am afraid..
No...its not like I have made them go fade..
The color perhaps have gone dull..
Or Is it I am happy to switch them off with a kill..

Simply freaking out at times to be with you,
I can't concentrate on anything....without having your view..
The question that comes in my mind..is have I accepted the truth ?
No..is my answer..and I am happy to live with a lie..till I wake up to see me in front of you. 

Dependence...on "ONE"..

The dependence of my happiness is the fact I have accepted..
May be some day I and you will understand it was much more than just mere being reflected..
No..its nothing as you feel I am stalking..
Yes indeed..I admit standing there knocking..

To easy to say and believe..
It takes a heart out to say..Am I relieved ?
The answer to which I do not have..
Could be telling a lie for you...I think I am not bad..

Morning have a smile of you..
As the day progress I feel your sight inside as truth..
Learned to live along and carry on...
Its the voice inside my head..that loves you ..Even though you are gone.

Disturbing...Stalking..seeking your attention..in some context could not be ruled out..
I wish you could see from my world...how it is ? ..without..
Every word have only one meaning of seeking an apology, begging you to come back..
Never could have imagine I will be like this..Seriously being with you is the only wish I ever had..