Scroll down..."you" SHORT MAN........

I know...most of the times I have not been true...
Can't stop...and had to say those words..before I they were for you...
Yes...I accept...it might now feel you strange..
Was not a trick...but its just I wanted you back ..desperately in that frame...

Every now and then..I had to make u realize..
Its not over...and can't you just see me happy behind those blue eyes...
I know..this conversation now will not have any feelings...
Call it to be my "luck"...and the word "forever" now hold no meaning...

Obviously the words used here are all the more outdated..
Repeating the same thing.ever time..with you thinking me being sedated..
Its not the way I wanted myself to react..
Guess..what.it was much easier to say then to travel time back...

The lines though have lost the very essence of being true from my heart...
I know you must have felt..."I must be prepared as the blogger boy is again going to fart"
Its not the emotions that I want me and you to hide..
Let me repeat again..to love and forget some is not that easy..as if you are rolling up the dice... 

Passive Obsession....with a "Red light"...grows everyday...

What makes me write this is the words that I only have in consolation..
Which actually are no where helpful to make me rise up from the disastrous state of isolation..
He only knows who I should beckon and fall upon and seek solace..
I know..you once jokingly said...nothing lasts..and so is the pain behind this phase..

Never did I come back to you..to say..watch me....still stuck up to find a way out from those days..
To the every one I know...this face seems to tell a different a different story..but no longer now it pays..
As they also know you left me in here..with a "sentence" to hang up for a life time..
Blamed my decision....and mockingly said..it was my and my bad craze that will never shine..

In the end it did turn back to normal...all I ever wanted was your patience standing up there..
Its hard to accept..but yes..I was never good enough for you...."mad" is the word..that actually might sound fair..
Obsession with the red light never ends..as I still have my look to the cellphone...
Shaking up my head in the distress..as it was just a "reply"..I admit I did burst out in tears and do.moan..

For that "affection" of belonging that never came...I am sorry if I ever forced you for that..
Present situation is still a bit tricky..but some how I avoid falling flat in front of my parents...admitting I have lost the track..
Of the time and the unsung "words"...who I actually wanted to be my winning score towards your heart..
Hope it may seem to fade away every day...All I wanted to know..are you listening..or patiently waiting for a new start..

Please Understand....

I accept and appreciate what you have gone through...
Holding yourself...at every point...while digesting the truth...
There might be many instances where you would have regrets...
Trust me the best is yet to come...have faith in his behest..

Some situations are best left unsaid...just like that..
Crying is the best form of an emotion..and not at all bad...
It makes you clean that already empty heart in your purse...
He is always there watching you in here with all his trust...

As these times also won't last...too long..
Sing in with the tune..that flows with that song..
No matter how hard you try to explain..
People will not be able to understand what up there in the "frame"...

Does not actually mean you need them to understand...
What you didn't say was the truth..as u wanted him to hold your hand..
A happy face does not lie and hide the inner feelings..
God is busy making some one to "repair" that leaked ceilings...

I do...

Give me the reason once more why should I love you...
I know its not you ..who have made me what I never wanted to....
May be this time ..I might get lucky to find a meaning...
Or is it I am hoping against hope for a new begining...

What ever may be the case...its the wait that has given me the strenght..
That you will come back..to hold me at that bend..
The words might feel..I am already deep in you...
Let me repeat it again....I only need to listen those words "I really do"

I have waited patiently for months to have the courage to say "hi"...
Held my heart strong...but was even prepared to hear and aceept "bye"...
The worst could have been to vanish without a try...
Let's get together ...and trust me..I will never let you cry...

Perhaps the words and the feeling never sounded so intense..
Yes..I have always wanted you like this...in every sense..
I hope u can listen me what I have never said to you..
We can be the best for each other....and please believe me when I say "I DO"