If I Knew What "HAPPINESS" meant...

If I knew what happiness meant. To have "NO EXPECTATIONS".Probably the easiest way to reduce the so called sadness in your miserable life. Most of the times adds up to the worst phase of else the condition. Not having a "GOAL"..or left with no option but to lead the life as if its flowing just like that.


This one goes out to all of you,
To the unanswered calls and the messages sent,
I hope in real ,that what if they never went.
Thinking and writing it again,
Just to make sure it some how makes you to reply back,
But how could I forget the fact it never had.

Not begging to you that it meant the end of life for me,
Considering the fact, we shared some thing common previously.
Angry , furious, breathless seems like killing the hapless.
Guess makes me laugh thinking about the madness.

All the words gone wrong,
Makes me realize I actually spent all the time explaining you the meaning behind the songs.
A Theme gone completely wrong,
Probably the best time to say go went and gone..

Saying "HI" repeatedly and want you to realize,
You are the only one who meant me more than a tea.
Jokes apart you are not to fat and I am not that dwarf.
Holing the cell phone in my hand, & Waiting for a call a message to make my day,
Regret to inform you , I lay all day and never had a word from you today.

The only problem I have, is the clarity and the truth I speak,
To compliment you and tell you "I Love you" , and I am not too weak to speak.
The passing time has made me realize, I am not having any option before my eyes,
It was and has been only you, with whom I want to be till the world dies...

Happiness..."FOR A CHANGE"...

We are changing and for the true reason.When you look at some one offering a seat to elderly or some one voluntarily helping some one to cross a road.Indeed feels good. We have come a long way from being playing a second fiddle role to become role models for the others to perform. The younger generation stand out in the contribution done to the nation towards improvement.What in turn knowingly or unknowingly there has been considerable change in our attitude towards life.We have lost our innocence, to appreciate life, to celebrate happiness, to accept the things they are, our expectations keep on increasing. Sudden rise in the status and the culture has meant that money, power ,fame have made a mark into our head.




Say It once, in months,
say it again with my name,
and its today ,same as every other day.
I love you is word I want for you.

Many a times, I left without saying a word,
Call it shyness or politeness, but did,nt had the courage to say,
Those magical words, which I want for you today,
Much more than just a line, and have no other words to define..

Every one is some one, any one, and is not the only one,
with whom I feel I am the one and only one for life to say "Here I come"...

Happy..for what..I have..

Happy for what I am and what I have. One thing I have learn t that to be happy, you have to have no expectations.As when you do, you end up a mess. Perhaps the best saying I know
"Love the person who loves you, and not the one you love".
Truly thinking its very much applicable, as the time has progressed for good so has our expectations from life. And all those freaking world is to be believed. To start with "DIL CHAHTA HAI" was the mother of all movies to start with.."JEE LO JEE BHAR KE"....what a shit..Though indeed the movies were all good, I mean fabulous. What it lacked was the human touch from our lives, your lives and anyone's lives. The reality gone behind making such lives was hidden. And that's the point we lacked. We accepted "Hard working" in today's world to "Hardly working"..But its just a personal opinion, to be true "Saathiya" was much more familiar to me. A thought a life we could relate to, or a middle class life being shown in true sense was very much indeed. For this case take "Khosla Ka Ghosla" , a commonness we could fit in."REALITY" has taken a new meaning. Flashy, imported, branded, apple, facebook etc are all in. I also do admit it for myself. But be natural and avoid while you can. Can some how contribute to the environment. Nevertheless gift some one a smile, a joke.Saying "RADHE RADHE", "Namaste", "Sat Sri Akal" while walking with an unknown. Might not feel anything to you, but ask a 74 year old man who is tough to recognize the people he knows around him..A sense of warmth and pleasure for him while a blessing for you..Just a thought my friends live for others..Might not have been your best time, but trust me and him. The best is yet to come. "As up there he is watching you"


The expectations do hurt, some time,
What to do, accept the fate in the beauty divine,
They have been plenty of it till today,
No regrets, but for all of it I have to pay.

Some times we feel so much, so close,
And always have a wish, to remember those,
With whom we always wanted to be,
Time or destiny or it was not the the wish of he.

What ever it was or it is or will be,
I will never forget the one who has always with me,
He knows that at all times,
I am and will be grateful to him, and the justice cannot be done alone in the lines.

Last MAN standing...."Invisible one"...

Hello my blog.How are you??..been 4 years since we met.I am sorry I forgot your birthday. Up with you, I feel up close and personal. As if I see, feel and live with the "one".Oh don't be shy. You do not know the one??..I mean the "ONE"..Still not able to get it..How boring and ugly. OK, I tell you "SHE" is the one with whom I always wanted to be. I am sorry I am late, and I missed you more.But how come I was able to resist thinking about you. Frankly speaking I couldn't. You are inside the words I speak the font I use the style I write, The way I talk, the moments I live, the stories I share, the way I love, the truth I say, the purity I relate....could go on.Best things in life come the hard way.So always expect the unexpected.You never know when you can become lucky.Give it your best shot when you have one last chance, till then train,train and train hard.Patience and persistence gets you there.At least when you die your know that your eyes were closed and your heart was free.Thank you GOD for what you have given me, and more importantly for what I have not got. As without it I could not have understood what loss is, perhaps one of the best one to have sense of maturity and level of understanding.

Close your eyes and let the dreams take you away, to my world. Simple and only simple.The way I am, the way you are.and the best way we could be.




Was taken aback, when I received your call just like that,
Could not understand what to do,and some how said hello,
A sigh of relief was tough to find, hold be before I turn blind.
Never believed It would be true, trust me the reason is only you.

I am sorry to have confronted you,
But it was simple and could not resist seeing you.
Its the only way I have got,
to be closer to you than I thought.

I apologize to you for the mental agony it caused,
Speaking more could have ruined the moment and I have paused,
Have had moment of happiness of tears,
I guess I waited too long for 9 years.

The story could have and easily turned around,
Guess its the destiny,respect or faith what every it sounds.

Respect.....Love......Happiness.... Are out of this world..

Some of the memories were revived while interacting with a friend..a friend whom i always wanted to be my ''great friend''..I guess the expectations were too loud..Happy for the two of them. I wish, I hope and I pray for all of you, & u should get everything u want with his say..I do not want somebody to write a blog..I do not want somebody still finding words for the loss you got..I do not want somebody to be anybody..and it was somebody the only buddy who went off this tree..how come every one turn ''pitch black'' the next moment...I wish to see how it feels to recieve a birthday gift..i wish to know how it feels to recieve a valentine card..I wish to know how it feels to ride a bike with u..I wish to know how it feels to get drenched in rain...I wish know how it feels to hold hands...I wish how it feels to be with you..I wish what I mean when I am with you...But truly speaking I am myself responsible for mycondition and guilt..a booring asshole, who means nothing more than a freak head to this world..tried to explain, but In vain..Hope one day you will come to know words are just a mean to say..I miss u each day i grow old.

I cried for you, but wanted to be with you,
I lied for you, as someday to be with you.
I died for you, when you left me for the truth.
I live for you, as this is how i could be with you.

I write for you, as for every word i means its you,
I dived for you, in an ocean to be with you,
I walk for you, as some day to find you,
I laugh for you, as each day I kill myself why I left you...

Relations with "Life time WARRANTY"...

Bit unusual but I guess I have emptied my heart out. For the past 9 years I was living in the guilt of the out come or the result I knew. Even though I was not successful, but the emptiness made me proud. I have said what I always wanted to say. The relations should also come with a life time warranty. Irrespective of the usage and without being affected by external forces.
Names or the relations might be hidden, but the life or the common space we share is independent of the lives we live in. Some time its boring to be so much monotonous, but its the only way I stay alive through my blog. Perhaps one of the best ways to be there always for some one.



Happiness is just the virtue of what we want,
Expectations is not our property and its up to him what he grants.
Can easily correlate to the best lines ever said,
but remember you cannot expect life without bends.

Who so ever up there is takes a decision,
has got to be convinced deep to every reason.
What if wishes are not granted,
I know you are always there ever haunted.

You cannot and never be sure,
For the relations even though so pure,
Should keep your fingers crossed,
If you would have been there, I would have never ever lost.

FOOLISHness...of a " SHORT LOVE STORY"....

Most of the times we tend to do what we want to do.Most of the times it didn't work, and the rest of the times the situation is almost the same. The latter one means we try our luck and end up being more pre occupied and hopeless. Jokes apart the feeling of "governing our lives" makes us happy. Best example :- We like some one, go ahead have an interaction or a talk. Take his or her number..

Then wait for 2 days atleast using the number..and 2 days feel like years..we do not want to eat.keep calling our friends..aaj karu ke kal baat karu...mesg karu...kya sochegi or sochega..despo toh nahi hun..kaise baaat karu...kaisa mesg karu..kab mesg karu..kab baat karu..phone uthayegi or uthayega kya??..

One of the best case study I have learn t from my HR was an example of taking an initiative and waiting for the opportunity, of being a PAPA or MAMA...and the choice lies to the individual.So make a call and be rest assured that you have a life of not to repent but to spent with that individual...and as my friend ANKUR (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000448597926) says..life is a mess..but why not make it a "BIGGG mess with some one"..I have been kind enough to have a good or perhaps a great family and not to mention sexy friends...name it.Jolly, ankur, uday,gagan...many more..not to write more name to offend some one..but in the end its the one who matters the most and not the one who host..a short poem goes out for what happened.


Its a luck by chance or by change but it worked,
As the day before I kept thinking what you wore.
You came late and i knew I would be early,
just to make sure i was there when your hair was curly.

I never knew what was addiction,
got to know about it when I am writing a fiction.
The initiative was mine and wanted to have dine,
but don't mind as its me who has just lost it to a sublime.

Great eyes and high heels, a killing combination as it feels,
Guess I was too early or too late, never to lie down and waiting for an update.
I Not able to find anything about you,
deleted you as the pain always grew..

And off late I have my friend with me,
They curse me, kill me,pull me..but I never forget the girl to whom I lost My sleep.

COMPANIONSHIP.........

Never ever understood what the word meant until I found its real meaning. The long discussion finally had a conclusion. And the best line I found out of all this is "As you grow old, you need some one to listen to and be your companion"...That's the word or may be the real "WORLD" in a "WORD".. And I bet most of us would agree to it. The old age is definitely the worst one, when you are simply dependent on others just for and only for your "HAPPINESS"..
For a 68 year old couple, cooking and making the favorite dish then also sharing it with the next person is "HAPPINESS".. I mean sharing which is the most important part and I believe we have lost it to your so called "NEW WORLD"..some call it work culture, to others its lack of time. But believe me you , me and all of us have lost it. The modernized world has taken a toll on us.

There is some one out there always,
Never know if its my strength or my week ness,
Guess the journey has been long,
But the heart has always been there all along..

Some time negative other wise positive,
The strength has always been you,
Was tough for every one letting it go,
Perhaps that was the turning point that meant me more.

People call it ego or show off,
I contradict the story as it has another version,
You need some one in your journey,
To make you realize that you are high honey.

What ever may be the reason for my happiness,
And it was and forever was true,
You are the one and the only reason,
for all my blues.

Just can't stop thinking.............and its you..

Kabhi aankh namm ho aye..
Dil kya hai, buss yaad le aye..
Woh aanshuu jo ruk chuke thee..
Kya pata yeh nahi kar payeenge bayaan..
Thee jazbaat ya keh na paye kya thi yeh baat..

Likh ke bayaan kar rahe hai ek aaass..

zindgi kitni khush ho tum,
Yeh jo hooton pe khushi hai,
Shayad aaj isi ki kami hai...
Yeh jo aaj hai, tha yeh kal mera...
Phir kyun aaj tuj pe phir bhi naaz hai...

Kal zindgi se mile theee,
Aur ban gaye woh hamari,
Kya pata tha tha ke waqt nahi hai zindgi,
Agar ban jaati toh shayad thaam letee usko....

Par kya pata tha ke zindgi ban jayegi meri,
Woh jo kal tha , aur aaj hai....aur umeed hai kal rahega..
Mera aaekaant....tu he mere saath thaa...
Aur kya pata yeh bhi saans ki tarah nikal jayega ek pal....