To the UNKNOWN....Happy new year..

Its been another year gone just like that,
And I kept with my hope to see you some time soon,
Guess I was wrong as it actually meant that It din't happen any time before moon..
Not angry or feeling distressed,
Had to admit the fact that , Obviously I feel stressed.

Anxiety levels are at peak
I might never show them and wear a mask of disguise.
How could I lie from you as it was always there in my eyes.
To be true I never showed you, and off late have hidden them behind my lies.

Never every believed that I will be left alone like this,
No one to ask and vouch for me..
Be it destiny and yes its a BIT lonely I feel..
As the day progress and months gone by..
Some how it has completed a year before I actually starts to cry..

I know you are watching me from up there,
Just wanted to tell you Its about time , I think to end up and lets get paired.
For the faith and hope I have on our true love.
That keeps me awake some how to feel me, you are up so close as my personal dove..

To remind you its been a hell of a year,
Me writing for so long to make you feel you are only one my dear.
Easy to explain as this one goes out as a prayer to GOD..
Please do not keep me waiting, and I need you much more than my I POD..

You.

Same old me..back to were it all started..

I am sorry to you...hope that can make you change your mind..
Its not actually me asking you to come back.. but it has actually made me blind..
Reason of course if only you..how can I forget.
The moments we shared together ..even though we have actually never ever met..

So what if we were not made up for each other..
We can and will live in one another dreams... always forever together..
Some time I might have pissed you..hurt you..and forced you to change your decision..
That never meant ..I stopped loving you..as for me..you are and will be the only reason..

For saying it again and again..knowing the fact you left me..
Simply and actually foolish of me..hoping for some day..if not today..and if you and I could actually see..
The Love that have in the eyes for one another...
And you asking me to move on..and leave you.....looking ahead for some one much further..

Only state that I am left ..is to feel sorry and have pity on myself..of what I have become..
Don't blame it on you..its the path chosen by me..and its not for fun..
And nor to make you realize to have sympathy on me..
If you really love me..please come back....and love me again....forever as I always wanted it to be...

Reason is you......My "ONE"...

Why I am happy even though you are not with me..
Reason is you..and I still believe in my destiny..
Perhaps some day will come..when you will ask me to come close..
Oh my God..stop me..from dreaming about it...actually you in that pose..

No matter what other's say and you think..
Its me always in you..what ever you may wear..be it your favorite pink..
Please don't go deep why it happened...just a request please revive it..
As you also know that..me and you completely fit..

Loving and being with the one is like nothing more you can actually ask for..
May be I was too fast ..to be behind you asking for more..
Call it to be selfish of me..its true perhaps
There could not be anyone like you..and I some how now can't stop...

On the Road side..

On my journey back home, I saw you at the back,

Surprising was it for me..to have actually met you just like that..

Its actually not bad..but not been able to speak to you makes me feel sad..

I am glad to have seen you..Since then I have been actually mad..

Standing at the red light , and seeing the clock tick,

To actually find out when it will say "Please start the vehicle and make me move my miss"..

Received the honk and the taunt from the back..

Was the worst I received in ages..and made me feel bad..

Hope some day I might take you out from me,

Selfish ?..No I actually do no want to sound like this..

The love that has not died down till now..

May I request you to be my moon that I always saw...

Set Me free..

One of the best inferences that I can take from the life off lately,
Are also one of the most painful one's that have touched me..
To the core....but I still believe in you one my one.
Don't doubt my hesitation ..as I have every thing prepared and not just merely for fun..

Have been doubt full of my past
Just could not gather the will to wake you up again at last..
I found myself wander places searching for my one..
Believe me ..I have always said..we had some thing special..and is better than none..

Will you be able to come back and should I be prepared.
As I am not hopping against time to ask me..Don't you dare..
Forever it has been to love my one..more than any thing else..
Want you come close to me..just by looking at me..even before I tell..

It Hurts..

It actually hurts to see you like this..
Freaking it away..when you are most likely to have your kiss..
Yes it seems a bizarre end to what was started as a move to make you get through..
Was it so hard to say...that "I also love you" as I do..

What ever the fate think it may have..
But You and I define it again..from worst to bad..
No no..I am not asking about that..
Some how I have controlled myself ..of actually not to think about my past..

Who knows I might some day peep again in you..
Not to inter fear ..but actually in despair ..
Call it to be similar sort of a desperate measure..
And only to seek your approval of the nod.."Please ask me to come there"...

Difference between a Truth and a Lie..

am tired of actually trying to explain..
Its was never me..who wanted everything to be blamed.
Some how the things never worked out..
Leaving me lonely every time in a doubt..

The wish that I always make to him is to spare me..
From your thoughts that has been killing , what I have left in my destiny.
Some thing I guess are supposed to end like this..
Despair..and blame me..for what I could not foresee ..

Please take me away from me..
As I will not be able to control myself..seeing your virtue.
Please come back again and be close again..
Actually not in a position to leave you there..as it was love that s why I wanted you here..

That Feeling never goes away..

Will I be able to relax and to make it free..
My mind that has been in clutters blaming the destiny..
For the dreams unseen and I am still wearing blue apart from green..
As its the color you liked..and it was actually before we met in a flight..

How could I forget that hour spent with you..
Still calculating as it was too less ...yes its true that some thing is due..
What ever be the case and the view..
Its too difficult to let you go from my virtue..

I am actually amazed how the things change..
Can't find you there were you actually promised to meet me for the train..
Some how its difficult to keep you away from my thoughts..
Its the LOVE that we had..and its was just a request to give it another shot..

Let me go Off "you"...My ONE..

You have been here before..unknowingly though..
Say it again..Feels like as if I have been waiting from Ages ago..
May I have the permission to speak my mind..
It actually pains a lot..not been able to speak my lines.

Of course of the reaction that might come..
Just saying those words does not mean if its over and done..
Its actually much more than merely understanding the meaning behind..
Does not mean..I have master's for the explanation to define..

Not a wish I want to make to you and to him..
Do not ever let me go off you..as its deep within..
Lately its true I might have been late to take a decision..
I love you...and perhaps I was wrong till date searching for the reason..

Life is a music..

Its actually quite strange that we assume about our perception to be true..
Even though the same applies for me when in virtue..
The so called idea of opinion is actually at fault..
No..its not like I have had anything besides you in my vault.

Desperation and frustration makes me to write about us.
To be true..I never think that I have missed you some where in the bus..
Just a delay of something sort of a mind make up..
But you have all the right to check me when I am in doubt..

I am not acting to be sarcastic ..but actually do not want to sound like a plastic.
And having you besides me is worth more than our last kiss..
Some thing is quite different....when I am with you..
Freeze the pane..as it looks beautiful with this view..

If I could change......

If I could change every thing...from where would I actually start.
As its been a while since we have played our destined part.
I guess I want to make you close to me.
You simply have no idea how much actually I need you, to go from I to WE...

Yes..I like to be with you..
But..denying it will only cause me to be closer to the truth..
Some how I have not have accepted what has happened..
That only time and again has prompted me to plea to you, to come back from that end..

Fictional part is to much into me..that I strangely know what it is.
To believe it, that I am closer to you..I will probably need to kiss.
Don't worry it will be inline to make me feel sure..
You will actually not disappear leaving me asking for more..

What makes me happy is the smile I see on your face..
To be true..Its hard to imagine the world having actually not seen you for days.
That does not stop me from loving you.
We were actually made and sent in this world to be together as Two's...

Conventional Boring scenario..

As I remember the time to feel and to perceive what I have become..
I am actually waiting for you to explain it to me..rather than saying its done..
Most of the situation and the notations were unexplained..
And still you are asking me..did it actually pained ?

Worse it becomes by asking it again and again..
Its there some where at the back of my mind..and boy..it reappears..
Call it to be the obnoxious weed..
And I do not want you any more..to have some thing sort of a repeat..

Change may be is the virtue of time..else its the easy to hide behind the lines..
Don't know how come you come again..to say how much I have gained..
All I say to you Its been a hell of a boring thing..going in me without you..
Are you asking me for the reason to change it..let me say...please come with me for a drive to my moon..

Scratch my head..

I wonder how quickly the things have changed.
Really makes me feel insecure..with a feeling so strange..
Guess what, I have actually given all what I have got..
And actually I am left alone like a thought to rot..

Do not worry my dear, its the time that is testing us with tears..
Some day they will be gone..and I will be left with my one last song..
Hope it makes you feel much better..
Can call it to be my one last feather..asking you to "lets again be together"..

Actually it up close and all within my hand's reach..
To easy to define..its not yet over as you may feel..
Also not trying to stretch it as a chewing gum..
Its natural for me to say an feel. you are definitely my love ..and my ONE..

Do I know ?

Do I know that I have loved you ever since I saw you..
Is it strange on my part to have not said it to you..What I wanted to ask?
As we pass it feels so late..
Perhaps its also true we have had not planned our first date..

Ignorance is always much more susceptible to make us come back..
Who knew it will help us to get together again..
Call it a missed shot..to me it was much more than just a mere pain..
Please say it again..the words you never spoke..or shall I have the permission to poke..

So strange it is to think about us..
To be true you also know it to work..
Why we are actually late in saying what we have in our hearts.
I promise..will never let you go...like the music is with the bass..

Its the "LOVE"..I want for you...."MY ONE"..

My teeth are always found stuck..in my lips..
And you complain..I never smile..so forget about the kiss..
Its obvious ..I was trying to be a fool..and make you one..
Ended up having nothing..except standing alone basking in the sun..

Seeing you made me think again..
Should I go back and say you the truth...Even if its the pain..
Actually its too hard for me to figure out..
I choke myself...every time I try to come out from the clouds.

Did it actually rain..to hide myself in it..
What difference does it make..I mean now..even if I move a bit.
I am Still standing there..waiting for your promise to come true..
Don't know why..But its love for my one..and that is what I am looking in you...

Belonging...

To be loved and left to live as it is..
Is the worst truth to happen to some one apart from a kiss..
Each day seems to be like heaven.
When you love some one..and forget your metro card on tavern.

That is just the few things to mention,
which ultimately comes with true love..and so is the tension..
Of not receiving a message or a call back..when you have said so..
Mind playing awe full games..saying it please do not let me go..

It is actually not a problem with me and I also do not think to much..
Simple to say..you actually do expect some to say ..I am there with you in each and every fuss.
Be it at my worst and I might tend to give away with rust..
Don't worry is the words you need..till end you may trust..

Who is my "ONE"..

I have said and explained enough about my one..
Its strange I still do not have the courage to speak and say its done..
Those alphabets that makes my head to round..
Words are few...to describe the way how it actually make the sound..

Been a while since we had a talk,
No one can define what we actually have had in that hour..
Its like every one was on a same platform waiting for you..
Importance ?..no..its actually an obsession to see you painted in with my blue..

Expectation were not off for a toss..
But its me still mourning about your loss..
Every day in the morning I say it to remind me..You live here with me..in me..
Who knows some day..I might get lucky..with you name permanently seeped in as I want to be..

Still the SAME..for my "ONE"..

Am I still the same..is the question I and we all usually ask ?
Movies..locations..celebrations are still in tact ..as we may pass..
So how come at the back of my mind it has a focus on you ?
Super human..no..its just me..asking you to come over to my moon..

It Isn't too soon...What else you want to think and configure..
If you wait more..I think my book of poems on you will be ready for the fair..
I do not write about what we have and could have had..
Just a perception..In my world..everything is set for you.,and need not move a tad..

Some people like me do not understand the world "MOVE ONE"..
Laugh at me..but the brain is not configured to accept its said and done..
I do not want to bug you at times of peace..reason is I am already having you..
Some time as a piece in my moments of happiness..that's all I ever asked you in times of need..

In here..

Am I a too old to write about it..
Or is it just a perception , I might lie a bit..
Its not about the age..but can call it to be an imperfection..
Is it actually too hard to understand..it not me..but only just a fraction..

Time and again..I have nothing to say but to explain..
Give me a break..just forget everything and let it out from your brain..
What you have been actually thinking of me..
Just tell me..how does it make you feel ?

I am not calling you to be green and asking you to beam..
Just asking you to reconsider..begging you is no way near in my jeans..
Love cannot be grown and frown like an expression..
Definitely it need some one like you to make me feel near perfection..

Actually can't stop laughing at me..why still I love you..
It kills me to say it again..its the word that has been repeated a zillion times probably since June..
Who am I trying to explain...You actually know you are in love ..so why this pain....
Accept the truth ...sing a duet ..and lets get together again..

Decision Maker..and Decision Making..

Its so hard to understand when you are judge by some one,
Being silent does not mean that you accept everything in his name..
Have been called insane and have myself to be blamed..
What if all that was said about me..was actually lame..

I never asked you to stop..for me..
Apologies for that..but that was not I actually meant to be..
Wish you could feel what's inside me..
Could not deny..what was actually meant for my "SHE"..

Confusion's and frustration level's are back..
Asking me to come out and shout ..saying I am not at all bad.
Its simply very hard for me to understand...and I only meant to be with you..
Not selfish...but I still love you..and that is actually the truth..

Perceptions...or a Mirror Image of Difference..

Some one said to me when I was young..
You will get what you want..But remember it will never be as done..
The hunger to have more and more grows within..
Guess what...I thought happiness could be bought from the store and so is the win..

What I am saying is a bit confusing and different..
Having my lunch alone..yes that makes me consistent..
Perhaps some thing is in my hands..
What actually I am trying to have...is one hell of a hard thing to understand..

Stupid questions and an obnoxious mind..
Crap is actually what I am writing..just can't take you out from my lines..
I know.. it actually does not mean anything related to you..
Not able to understand..what stops me for correlating to you as my moon..

Drained Completely !!..

I tried hard with all my luck..to make it as difficult as I could..
Knowingly I made it complex..Picking up the lines while narrating about your dress..
Not much is actually left to explain ..all I am having now is an empty lot of the words..
And no way I could find the lines to impress my distressed bird..

Might not be apt or lucky with the reason to explain.
Seriously have the reality in front of loosing the "ONE"..and that worsens the pain..
No matter how much time I write ..It always end up as my last plight..
Makes me feel sad..how I transformed from that end to being bad..

The situation has actually dried out the part in me.
I some time laugh at myself..Is it all because of my destiny ??..
And else who would have thought..me still stuck on at you..
Trust is not just a mere word..but I am expecting to cement "you and me" in this so called world..
  

Paint Me..

From the sound of the rain falling and touching the ground..
To the fragrance of the wet that makes the heart go round..
Tasting the tears and that some times feels salty..
At least .I am happy that they washed out my faulty drain...

The emotions with which you want to paint me are a bit different..
Seeing the watch after every second..counting when its gona be that minute..
Spending the evening on the bed...with mom asking you how you would like to be fed..
Walking the path alone..wondering if the distance ends on that bend..

Hoping for too much and too soon could be one of the self styled reason to get hurt.
Controlling yourself some how in his name with every thing starting with a "BUT".
Closer to reality it seems..with the words some time making me to scream..
If you can listen to the echo....Its asking you to "PLEASE don't go"..

You never learn..

I know the complaints and the reason behind why you are angry..
Makes me itchy..If I can ping you..trust me it still feel a bit scary..
Reason..why are you looking at me ? you do not know..
My dear its love..that I am actually trying to show..

Oh ho...Don't make me fell I need to go..
Change the look of your face. as it was 2 days ago..
You look beautiful in it..I am not trying to be cheeky..
But that's how I always think of you..trust me..

Thinking about you brings a smile to my face..
Stretch out ..a bit relaxed..and that how the mood becomes..even though I haven't seen you in days..
I know ..I never learn from the past that has always haunted me..
Guess what !! forgetting is no way near. ..so.Let me live in the lie.." that You love me" my dear..

Surprise Me my GIRL...

I wish it was the other way round..You wooing me..
Its simply much more better than hoping for destiny..
You writing blogs and sending me poem every day..
So much easy would have been on my part to accept you s they say..

Vice verse sound better perhaps best for me..
No..it does not really mean I want you to realize its tough writing a new poem for my "SHE"..
At least glad and feels secure ..and can call it to be safe..
Knowing the fact that some one admires you more than you mate..

Off late the relation is having thin strings attached to it..
Even though it did not break, but the vibrations are felt..am asking for a retake.
Saying a "SORRY" is the most easiest thing to do and move on..
Same is with me..seriously its too tough to be stubborn..

What ever be the past ..I know we cannot change or erase..
Accepting it with a thinking that it was some thing sort of an early phase..
I do not want an explanation and frankly do not expect it from you..
Only asking you to come back.. and lets again get together as two...

Dragging the Sorry's and apologies for my "ONE"..

Is there any way to kill  the guilt feeling that keeps me awake..
Dragging me slowing day by day..making me realize its my fate..
I actually have no reason to be angry with you....And I am sorry to you on every date..
Call me cup plate..or half plate..and loving you is my only band aid..

Please plan a rescue mission for me...drop a rope so that I can climb my way up..
If that's the plan you have..I must say..please be quick before i wake up.
Kindly be fast..and to be true I actually want to jump out from my past.
Having a blast..no way...as I am still hesitant to hold you and may I ask ?

Will you be able to love you as I do ?
Unconditionally ...irrespective of the way I look..or the way I cook.. ?
Questions seems to be more and at galore..I try to avoid sound boring ..
It really does not mean any thing to me..if at all I am scoring...

Making the person realize to believe you , is simply asking for her trust..,
Frankly do not have a better option but to say it rightly before I miss the bus.
Is loving you so much pain and insane ?..then I have no hesitation to admit..
I want to live with it for my life..as it only way that makes you closer to me again..

Hope it never ends...

Mind has a reason to explain..
Any situation and he is all the more excited to play the blame game..
Its quite natural and easy how we come to a conclusion and a perception..
Without knowing the truth..relate it to what you or else we could have done.

Quite uneasy and complicated it becomes..
Simple words  are so hard to come out from our tongues..
SORRY is related as if you want to win the person back,
The depiction to the partner is different..but inside its the truth and you always wanted that.

To be honest with my vision..No day goes by without seeing you pic..
Call it to be insane..my wallpaper..my screen saver..every thing has you and your name..
I some time get repetitive in words..Its only me saying to you I am not at all a nerd..
Is it absurd to love you madly ?..and I Can't stop flying with you as MY own BIRD..

I am a LIAR..for the "ONE"..

Can you see it in my eyes..or should I lie to make you believe..
All this is only for you..not just a fever this week.
Most of the times you said to go with the flow.
I told you "HELLO" its too difficult for me to stay awake..but please don't go..

Act of foolishness were there is my talks and as I walk..
Strange to image I was loved by none and also now hated by the one..
What life is like when some one up so close moves back..
Respected the feelings..I simply can't force myself to have track.

Altogether it seems a different world and at different times.
Seeing back what it was..it hardly anything there to define..
Scars yess..they are some what seems permanent to me..
To love some one else apart from you ..is certainly actually not me.. 

Self content with "YOU ALL"..& Happy Diwali to my "ONE"..

The feeling this time..is a bit different..
Mood is the same but the reason so in consistent..
Explanation are obnoxious misinterpreted and not understood.
Seriously ..I honor the decision made ..though the other reason's make us persuade..

To reach out the dreams we have..
Full fill the empty hearts with the feats for which we have been glad..
Not every time we have the opportunity to make our selves clear.
Its a small window in which we have to bargain ourselves in pairs.

Track though is stuck on a particular note..
Repetitive, boring ...irritating ..perceptions are all there at galore.
One simple communication I would like to pass through..
Its immaterial no one loves me or loved me.."All that matters is that, I am still the same looking out for me"... 

Happy for you..My "ONE"..

You have a bad habit..and have to admit..
Popping up at the wrong time..It isn't sound fun..
I mean you are completely to be blamed.
Coming in my dreams..seeing me like this..and i am actually ashamed..

The wishes you made..have not come true.
That's why we are not together..since noon..
No..I am not a fool..but waiting for your sign..
And the distance is hardly anything..that stops me to have a dine..

After all you are all mine..call it destiny..
Or its the beauty divine
Don't worry.. I have not had a wine..
Its only you I am hooked to for my lines...

Perception does make it worse..

The level of the expectation is a big point of a concern..
As always you do find and never end up with a U turn..
The way you look back at times, And end up having a laugh..
Cannot force some one to stand there listen to you about your past..

Some sort of a belonging you develop for the one,
Can't explain..and cannot out run...
Obviously the problem of hurting the one is there.
Is it ok..if I tell her that "I am actually in despair"..

Mind does not seem to be in control.
Simply not able to sleep..and whole night was like..never easy to get over..
You ..I mean me always tend to complicate..the matter as I seem..
The fact is obvious for me to expect from you..and you are the only perception from me...

Erase....and shift back for my "ONE"...

We do what we want..irrespective of the facts..
Its absolutely perfect to say..one sided love has always have it impacts..
And it ends up with you looking at the metro.
You are standing alone gazing at other people as they go..

Some time its even hard find the platform,
Other side..the issues crop you , as its difficult to configure which way its up..
Mostly its a tough task to stand up,
Even while searching your pocket its the parking slip that always some how come up.

What's up ..and how are you are mostly symbolically asked,
Suddenly you blink your eyes and wake up in the past.
They also know how we are...a tactic or fanatic..
Cannot explain or say .."I think its over..now are you happy with it ?"

They will never understand..how many times you explain..
Simply does not matter..and they call me to be insane..
I never appose what every they do..let me make it clear
Its my life..And all I want is to be with you...My "ONE"..

BOLD and Underlined..

I saw you in the garden having a walk,

Could have asked you stop and have a talk..

Am I afraid..Yes to be true..

As of this I wrongly asked you "If you wanted to have a juice"..

Coffee..I know is the usual thing we ask,

Seeing you made my sense go haywire...forgetting my past..

Happiness knew no bounds,as every thing was related to you..

The season, the reason or the decision....at last had belief in truth..

It goes on like as it had never happened..

I see it going past me..and change my mood for heaven..

Lost in the words and same is with the lines..

Can't write..but its you who has the key for happiness underlined..

If Silence Had a language..

What if the ability of not to speak at times ..was actually a language ?
The so called communication barrier would not be there..else we can gaze..
Condition of the mind is confused and difficult to address..
Really ..kicked off..and heading towards to state of distress..

Repetition of words and situation in every condition.
Makes it much more miserable and worse..heading towards a deviation.
Decision and the actions so far have troubled every one else.
Unknowingly I have hurt the one I loved..and it tells..

On my face..and I am sorry..
And Why can't I keep myself and the feeling at bay with a apology..
Never ever it was so complex to understand..
My wish was to stand by you and say it to you "I am there till the end to hold your hand"..

Fused Bulb..

Much of the instances goes by thinking of what I have,

Synonymous with the fact of being anonymous as I drag..

To the areas unknown in the corner of my mind..

Some thing is a miss...and I am trying to connect that point..

Many of the moments were of emptiness..

Mocked by every one for the so called foolishness..

Of writing every now and then..

I hope and wish, its better to do this way..than spoiling the life at other end..

Its the roses and happiness I wish for you..

Blue moon...or a a good after noon..Love for you..hope you find it soon..

Just the words up an down...backward or forwards..

Its the rhyme I want to create ...to avoid you getting bored..

Never it was my intention to pin you up to the wall..

I had nothing..but only you ..to say..that's not all..

Past some brings in the times we shared..or is it I am afraid to leave it behind..

Truth is..Am I stuck in a maze ?..or is it I do not ever want to step outside the line..

Going deep..

You have to feel it inside to understand..
Not just merely talking to some one ..and move with the band..
Its actually quite tough to relate..
Some time its full..and not always up there with the plate..

Perhaps one of the better reasons to go with you on a date..
I promised to be on time..but how come I got late..
The time automatically flies away,
Who knows it would have been years since we spoke on that some day..

May be to keep the tears at bay..
And they go down deep...to seep inside ..I could taste them to feel.."what happened to me that day?"
Some thing has been lost....I tend to explain ..its still not the worst..
Only have myself to explain..and I cant stop falling in love with you again and again...

The Season..Change..

The drive seem lonely..with no one to give a direction,
My mind is wandering to the places..looking for the truth to have a connection..
Hearing the noise around..with me insulated with the windows closed..
I wonder, if I could get a glimpse, that would lighten up my face all the more..

Moving round and round with no reason why I am producing this sound..
Wasting my time..or trying to live with it..but some thing has been left behind..
As I see back to figure it out..Same moment I am forced to look in front..
Confused..As the frustration is growing...with me being called a junk.

Did I do it well..not to disturb the person again..
Throw myself some where..as day by day its simply unbearable to witness this pain..
With you I try to associate the fact.."Emotionally drained?"..Yes perhaps its back..
The feeling that makes my cry..And slowly eating into my confidence...But"Why still I want to give it a try?"...

Be happy..

Being happy ..and the association with it not long..
Just a perception of the mind, as every thing will be fine..if you walk along..
Off late nothing seems to be right..
Cry..its the habit lately I have developed to bring me respite..

Can't get you out of my head..
My bed..my walk..or in my talk..its always you moving me ahead..
A good start..for starting the art..
The long run perhaps have hit the dead end...after all.

Any thing but the perception of the happiness is different..
So far it has given me the reason to be consistent..
With myself and my feeling about you at galore..
Nothing can or could stop me loving you..Even if I am on some another world..

A new Reason ..every day for my "ONE"..

Hard to find new reason every time..
The problem is I am still stuck up on the first line..
What to say and what to explain..
Only thing..I can't stop thinking about you again and again..

We were born to be together..
You can call this to be forever and ever..
Never it has been like to leave you on that door alone..
Predestined to be with you,  no matter what so ever..

Its all the same like..when you left me..
Am I wrong..or is it or it was too easy to forget me..
I know some thing must have troubled you in your past..
Don't expect me to quit on you so fast.

It goes off as a prayer up to the heaven..
May be some one some where is listen to me .and it not an end..
Still a long way to go..before we depart..
There is nothing we can do..as we have truly played our part..

Words....

Just a reminder of my dream, I was down there,
Standing on my feat, and in a flash every thing disappeared..
I wanted to shout..call for help..Ask the next person where I am ..as I beam?
Next moment it shook me like any thing and I woke.Thank God it was a dream.

Imagine, rehearsed the same situation almost 100 times to have perfection..
Yes its true, I lack the experience to have some sort of a connection..
Words and the language as apt as it could be..
Forget about the date and time..its been years since I have been waiting for it to fall from trees.

The IF's and But's are all up there in galore,
As they see me standing alone on the dance floor..
I might sound a bit overexcited in my lines above..
Being perfect , finicky or lazy..and its a thin line which I am trying to walk this time..

Out of my mind to have tried to describe you in my words..
Is it really worth this much or I am fooling my self with the verse..
"MY PRECIOUS" is simply awesome..she thinks I am fat..with a fat bum..
How could this be I asked her to explain? and as they say..
And as they say..its difficult to win an argument with a "LADY"..I am emphasizing this again..

Perhaps by now my lines would have been seeped into your head..
If this is so..then may be the telepathy can work..and I can stop writing down to address..
Lines are Like a prayer to God..that wishes hope and the best for you..
Even though its not me.I will stand there to see you happy...accepting the truth as my destiny..

My first..with the "ONE"...

Never called you to tell..How I am after all..
Standing up there thinking about what I have left in that hall.
Its simply tough to recollect, at what point it went wrong..
Really it was unplanned, and before I could understand ..everything was gone..

Hanging up that wall is the picture of you that I keep gazing,
Hard to figure out from the pictures I have..which one is amazing..
Of late the weather makes me remind of the storm,
That blew it apart..and not everything was wrong.

I could hear in my head the words that we spoke..
They also could not deter me to stop and give up he hope..
Look at me..and its enough we have cribbed ourselves from that day to this..
May I ask you to hold my hand close your eyes...And lets forget every thing with our first kiss..

The other side of a coin.

This story is from the child hood which I am going to share. The ever increasing pollution led to a specific campaign in schools, “SAY NO TO CRACKER’s”. All our above actions helped to contribute to a common cause.

So what happens to the other side, I mean employed youth and children in the cracker industry? With ever changing scenario, the complete industry was gone. The so called short story only lays down the emphasis on a “TWO” side impact of any “Decision” made.  As being individuals, responsibility to act upon the actions lies in our own hands.

Choose wisely.

Uneasiness...

I woke up today to find no one was besides me,
Yes, it was a dream when I saw you lie in tee..
How come it was not the truth ?
As it was forever and ever I wanted you more than me..

The radio station played my song on the request,
I hope you were awake listening to it...Guess you were not on rest.
Yes..it was the perhaps the best I could do.
The genre is same..only the theme has changed from rock to the blues..

No ..its not a daily flu that I have,
Some time..yes indeed i feel bad and makes me feel sad..
What should I do to win you back ?
Not given up on hope, but its the luck that I have never had..

Like a daily prayer I wish for your happiness..
Despite not with me, still I pray that may almighty give you thy bless.
The day looks gloomy to me..with a weak concentration saying it to me..
Let the god take its chance..as he has the power to decide..if we can have our daily last dance..

Obvious reason..Is "YOU"...

Drifting apart has only one thing common at any point..
Its followed by a long meaning full and a strange reason...which say's "We do not bind"..
I agree to the expression on the face..
True it is..besides not having lines "doubly" made..

The blame game happens at last,
 And you simply forget "she" was the one for whom you have kept the fast.
Any way the only option is to pray for her well being..
Knowing the fact, she does not wishes to be close to you.. and be like  "never seen"..

I am sorry..but its the happiness I want to see on your face..
As this feeling is killing e softly..and is like falling to disgrace..
Every morning is like a painful reminder for what I have done..
Trying hard to keep my past at bay..Lets try to come again that is the only wish I have on my tongue..

Biting myself to realize its the present I have to live in..
The dreams are freezed and some one has thrown them in that bin..
For days I have been trying to get them and join together..
Its the only Feeling that every time makes me breath better and better....

Some time you do believe the truth.....

Its tough to believe the reality you face.
With the mind having the hesitation to realize its Not a disgrace.
Perhaps its hard to say its been days..
Still fresh in my mind with the maze..

No good for any one..
Is the fact I have to digest..and it too easy to say than done..
Some thing must be faulty in my circuit..
And I am always trying to fix it..

The words have dried up as I speak..
Tried to shout at the top of my voice from that peak..
I hope at some point of time you listen to them. and believe..
Every thing is and was for you..and only Waiting for your reply to make it "Complete"..

My Mind

I am having those words in my head.
Perhaps the truth I always wanted to know..was out ..before we reach that bend..
Seriously I do not wanted this to be like THIS..
The book mark on my laptop do not seem to disappear..and I know I am nearing the end of this year..

Your name..your college..the last words some how on every day makes me realize what I have done.
I am sorry and apologies for the promise made..and simply it was not for fun..
Knowing and believing the truth is had to come by after what have happened.
Do not regret the fact..but only ashamed of myself...and I hope its not the end..

The feeling is like a mixed bag of emotions..I want to cry..only thing holding my self is your wish..
Not blaming myself..even though nothing has worked for us..and can accept the decision as his..
Hard to let the one go besides you, cant even say HI..as it will trouble her more..
But please tell me the way to be with you..and I see my self with any one else in this world..

A Promise made to the "One"..

No one knew how may times I cried.
Perhaps till date I have not at any single time lied..
For a wish to be with you,
As some thing is lost if I am not able to see you...still I say I do..

Word have a meaning with your name,
Before or After , does not mean they are in vain.
Never was it simple to be together..
I know , I am no good for you..to be there forever..

Trying to raise my level up,
To reach you, and say.."Lets forget the past" and start a fresh.
Promise you this time it will not end up in a mess..
Please give me a chance again, to prove myself again.
.and May god bless and take away all my pain..

Helpless is the word that has been recently attached.
Seeing you from the window, all I am hoping lets get together and get it patched..
I am waiting for the moment till you make up your mind.
As said earlier.."Its tough for me to see you in and from my behind"..